Here’s what I wanted you to know, things that I wanted to say for a long time.
Even though I am the last thing that would ever cross your mind, or perhaps never will, I wanted you to know that all I ever wished is your happiness. I could still feel the fervor and genuineness of your laugh and the solace and warmth of your smile. I held it most dear to me, because you don’t realize how precious your happiness is.
I want you to know that even though our paths barely intersects, all I ever hope is that you’re happy and contented with the path that you are currently in. You told me you don’t have any dreams, unsure of what you wanted to be, but your eyes tell me otherwise. I can see a girl with a sky full of stars in her eyes, a glimmer of hope to continue chasing this fast-paced earth.
I want you to know that in this boundless concept of time, ours are short-lived. But amidst that reality, I have my moments with you and I am thankful of that. I have kept it sacred and I always will. You might think that I am giving it more importance than it deserved, but girl, you can’t imagine how you make my day just by giving me butterflies at my mailbox.
I was meaning to say that I know your heart beats for someone else right from the start and I can’t blame you for that. I can’t make you feel whole like he can and that’s okay. I just hope that even for a little bit, even for a little while, at some point, I hope I made you feel better about yourself that no matter how broken you are, you are never undervalued.
I wanted you to know that I sincerely hope that someone else will know the way you make me feel when I was in your presence. I hope that someone will witness how adorable you look when you brush your light copper streaked hair with your hand. I hope that someone else will hear your disarming laugh and your consciousness to the thought that you don’t want to be indebted to other people.
Because most of all, you deserved those things.