I’m sorry for being so cruel the last time we talked. I poured all sorts of emotions and I know that was quite different from the way you used to know me. The pain was just too much to bear. 5 years was all I needed from you. I promised to be your first and you promised to be my last. I don’t know what the future holds for us. I’m uncertain of our what is and what will be. Will we meet other lovers? Will we be able to hold on to the promises we made? Will you still pursue me after 5 long years? I really don’t know. What I know is that 5 years ago, I was completely different from who I am right now. I’ve learned that love doesn’t ever come easy. Love comes the hard way. And if we do get past through this, then that’s love. And it will be wonderful. But if it doesn’t, what we had will be a lesson to ponder on. And that’s still beautiful.