Category: Depression

Naranasan mo na bang umiyak sa gabi, ilang oras bago pumatak sa alas-dose ang kamay ng orasan hudyat na malapit na ang iyong kaarawan? Marahil oo, marahil hindi. Pero ipinapadalangin ko na sana hindi mo maranasan. Ibang-iba sa nakasanayang mga kaarawan. Karaniwang masaya, may regalo, handa at mga taong malalapit sa puso ang pupunta dala… Continue reading Luha sa Kandila

Alone in a crowded room Finding out my new home Losing sanity amidst my plea Shadows of pasts pulling me. Sinking, drowning Tornadoes whirling, Cuts of roses I embrace Running exasperatedly in your maze. Lie after lie, Dreadfully watching me die Fighting my own war Keeping all bandaids in a jar. My eyes began to… Continue reading Slave of Eerie Thoughts

Wide awake in the small room When everybody were fall asleep Here I am thinking of so many things Questions, regrets and other thoughts keep crossing my mind back and forth. When the darkness slowly steals the light When the evening embracess the day That is also the same moment, where sadness replaces the joy… Continue reading THE REAL ME!

“Kamusta ka? Okay ka lang ba?” Minsan eto yung pinaka sweet na tanong na gusto nating marinig sa isang miyembro ng pamilya o di kaya kaibigan ngunit eto rin minsan ang nagpapasakit ng puso natin. Pero ang tanong ko sa lahat ng nagbabasa neto, okay ka lang ba? I don’t have the power to comfort… Continue reading Okay ka lang ba?

Palo doon, palo dito Hampas sa taligiran, hampas sa ulo Masakit na masaktan ng mga taong di ka kilala Pero sa lahat ng sakit, di mo to iniinda Maraming pagkakataong pinagtaksilan ka Ng mga tao na inakala mong aalalayan ka Pero tumayo ka pa rin at sinabing kaya ko pa   Kilala ka nila ng… Continue reading NASIRANG TIWALA

You want to go back to where things are almost perfectly fine, where you don’t chase happiness too much. You’re always thinking negatively about what is ahead; that is why it is killing your joy. You’re worried about something ahead that could hurt you so you better not do anything. You used to write the… Continue reading It all started from pain

Reality hits you hard. The fact that you know everything but still hurts when someone talks about it with you. You keep fighting, helping yourself to be a better you but then all of a sudden those motivation becomes frustration, asking yourself “am I not really enough?”. “Am I that ugly?”, “Am I that fat?”,… Continue reading Take me out of the dark…

I have been thinking to share this in public, but I don’t know when to start. I love writing as it is my way of expressing my thoughts and my emotions and I somehow want the world to know what is happening inside my mind. And to think that some people read it makes me… Continue reading How people are helping me with my depression

Dear God,   Abba Father, It’s been a while. I am so sorry that whenever I write a letter to you, I’m always in despair. I’ve been avoiding you these days. It’s so hard to open my mouth and talk to you even though I know talking to you will be a comfort and a… Continue reading AN OPEN LETTER TO GOD, I WANNA GO HOME.

No matter how it starts, intrusive thoughts eventually set in. It might begin with an idea that I should tell people I’m dying or that I’m hurt. At this stage, I just want some compassion and empathy but fear that I won’t receive it if I reach out. I believe this is where the stigma… Continue reading SAVED

She stayed until past midnight, visited her for almost two years and no one knows when it will stop. Actually it stopped before but came back from its grave. It comes with a creepy sound, telling her that she has never been enough, she’s not worthy and not even loved by someone who she thought… Continue reading SADNESS

Dear You, To my dearest, I know you are holding up so much today with your condition. Under this circumstance where the world felt so depressed and so are you. But I know you are battling for it every day with yourself. I know it is hard that every small thing reminds you of the… Continue reading To the Person with PTSD

Tulooooooooooooong.. Sigaw ng isip sa sarili, tulungan mo ako pagod na ako sa pagiisip, pagod na ako kimkimin lahat ng sakit  at lahat ng problema. Hilahin mo ako paangat sa pagkakalunod ko, nalulunod na ako sa emosyon, unti-unti na akong nawawalan ng pag-asa, unit-unti na akong nawawalan ng gana. Tulungan mo akong ibalik ang ngiting… Continue reading Sa aking Sarili

Dumating ka na din ba sa part ng buhay mo Na you doubt your worth? You started to question yourself. Why not? Why not me? I’m not that good enough? I’m not that worthy to be the one? Sabi nila you deserve better Pero ayaw ko ng better. Ayaw ko din ng best Isa lang… Continue reading Gusto ko na lang maging MAHINA

Pagkaraan ng mahigit 2 taon nabuksan ko ulit ang accoung na ito, buti na lang at naisulat ko sa isang notebook ang username at password para dito. Mahilig talaga ako sa pagsusulat, kaya naman noong maikwento sa akin ng aking guro sa Grade 12 and site na ito ay agad akong gumawa ng account upang… Continue reading Ngayon, ako ay sumuko.

Here you are, looking out in the window Thinking about the things you’ve done Asking yourself a lot of what if’s Making yourself drown with memories There again, you are being emotional You hug and cheering yourself up Convincing that it is alright as if it was your chant Then, wiping your own tears once… Continue reading Dear self, are you hurt?

Madalas siyang bumibisita sa ‘yo, sa tuwing kakatok siya sa pintuan ay agad-agad mo itong bubuksan, hindi ka mag-aalinlangan— malugod mo siyang tatanggapin at pauupuin pa sa malambot na sofa habang dala-dala niya ang mga pasalubong na kakaladkad sa ‘yo pababa, at gustong-gusto mo ‘yon. Kung may masayang umaangat, may masaya ring lumulubog sa putikan,… Continue reading Ang Kalungkutan ay Suwail na Bisita

Ilang beses mo na nga bang tinanong sa mga kamag-anak, kaibigan at iba pang mahal sa buhay, Kumusta ka? – dalawang salitang noo’y parang napaka-casual lang kung itanong ng karamihan. Those words may not even mean anything to some of us before. Mahigit isang taon na mula ng pumutok ang balita tungkol sa Covid-19. Maraming tao… Continue reading Kumusta Ka?