I’m glad you knocked.

I recall every bit of it: Every tear drop. Every desperate cry. Every cutting attempt. Every lie that defined my being. The bitterness that no one and nothing can sugarcoat. The hatred I felt towards every cheerful person I met. The grief and the pain I held onto to keep going. The cursing, the murders… Continue reading I’m glad you knocked.

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alaala ng kahapon

Sa araw na ito, nakapagdesisyon na ako. Hindi ko na rin kaya. Balang araw, maiintindihan din ako ng nakararami. Balang araw, maiintindihan na rin nila ang nararamdaman ko. Simula sa araw na ito, sana ako naman ang pakinggan nila. Alam kong kakaiba pa rin ako sa lahat. Hinding-hindi nila mararamdaman ang nararamdaman ko. Sa araw… Continue reading alaala ng kahapon

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Anino ko

Anino ko san tayo ngaun tutungo? Pagud kana ba? dahil ako malapit na. Wag ka munang lumisan, wag naman akung iwanan. Kung sakaling ikaw ay aalis, wag naman sana please. Sawa na ako, lage nalang ganito di ko alam san tutungo may patutungohan pa nga ba? Sana naman ako’y iyong samahan kahit panandalian lamang. Sabay… Continue reading Anino ko

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Crippled

Crippled Suddenly you’re there again, in that situation, in that loneliness you escaped a long time ago. It’s creeping. It snuck into you like a thief in the night while you’re fast asleep. Without a notice, without a warning. You just realized it when you felt an empty space in your heart. A missing piece.… Continue reading Crippled

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Lost

Im lost. I don’t know what kind of sin I’ve done in my past life to suffer in my present life. Bakit ako? Bakit akong hindi marunong bumitaw at marunong lumaban ang nahihirapan? Bakit akong niloko ginago pinagpalit at itinapong parang basura ang naghihirap samantalang  ikaw ang saya saya mo. Ang saya saya mo na… Continue reading Lost

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A POEM FOR THE DEVILS MOUTH

He`s just doing his best, With passion and compassion for the rest, All corners of his eyes were bloating and screaming, –An eyes who demands to sleep for its sacrificing, But, he was humilitated by the Devils mouth, —A devil that has a million prides from the very start– At least, he could manage to… Continue reading A POEM FOR THE DEVILS MOUTH

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The Truth about Pain

We all feel pain. But we all have different ways of dealing with it.   Some people overeat. Myself included. *sighs* Some oversleep. Some overspend. Some go to far away places. Some spend their time on video games. Some drown themselves in alcohol. Artists usually make use of the pain to make poetry, music or any form of… Continue reading The Truth about Pain

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Kapag Madilim Ang Ulap

“Kapag madilim ang ulap” Naaalala ko pa rin ang sandali. Na napakadilim ng mga ulap. Walang gustong kumilala. Walang gustong mangusap. Ano nga ba ang meron ako? Bakit parang lahat ng tao ayaw sa akin? Bakit nila ako gustong saktan? Hindi ba ko karapat dapat mahalin? Yan ang nasa aking isip noong bata pa lamang… Continue reading Kapag Madilim Ang Ulap

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Panggap (Pretend)

Nakangiti, masaya, madaldal at madali makapalagayan ng loob. Ngunit malakas ang aking kutob. May maskara itong kausap ko. Parang walang problema sa unang tingin. Ramdam ko na malapit na siya mahulog sa bangin. Hanggang kailan niya ito dadalhin? Sinubukan ko siyang tanungin. Ngunit isang malaking ngiti ang isinagot niya sakin. Ngunit iba ang sinasabi ng… Continue reading Panggap (Pretend)

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Konting Tiis Pa

Isang hapon bigla ko nanaman naisip isulat Laman ng utak na basta lang nakakalat sa dami ng problema na aking dinadala di na alam kung pano mababawasan pa minsan nais kong malaman, bakit ito pinagdadaaanan inakalang ang nakaraan ay sapat ng basehan upang magkaroon ng lakas itong aking kalooban sa dami ng pinagdaanan, di pa… Continue reading Konting Tiis Pa

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