Category: Depression

Ako yung taong puro salita sabi nga nila Pero hindi nila alam na lahat ng aking ginagawa ay para sa kanila, Dahil ang mga nagsasabi nito ay ang aking pamilya Yung malaya kana man pero bakit parang nakakulong ka   Nakakulong sa malalagim na salita ng iyong ama’t ina walang nakitang tama kundi puro panghuhusga… Continue reading “Mapagmahal pero mapanghusga”

She cried for help. But no one noticed. She smiled. She said she’s okay. Everyone believed that she’s fighting. But she was alone in the dark. Nobody tried to listen to her. She tried to be positive around people she loves. She kept them going. She gave them words that nobody ever told her. She… Continue reading She Needs You

  OVERTHINKING? To those people who overthink too much…. Are you having a sleepless night? And a mix emotions? Crying? Having a hard time to breathe? What are your thoughts?being lonely sometimes is natural and okay I’m saying “SOMETIMES”.Please listen…don’t stress yourself thinking of something that is not yet happening, you’re just creating a story… Continue reading OVERTHINKING 1.0

Ang hirap din ee. Yung bigla ka nalang maiinis, maba badtrip, mawawalan ng gana. May mga oras na feeling mo walang problema, pero isang tambak na pala. May pagkakataon na hindi mo iniintindi kung anong kasunod na mangyayari, basta ang alam mo lang ay masaya ka palage. Ang hirap din ee. Yung masanay kang positibo… Continue reading “KAYA KO PA, KAHIT ANG HIRAP NA”

People drink to enjoy their life.. I drink to end mine. When I found out that hard alcohol drinks could cause me death because it became the reason of my heart palpitation, instead of avoiding it I trained my self to love it and be used with it. As an alternative instead of drinking poison… Continue reading A confession of an alcohol drinker

As time passes by, humans become emotional. And sometimes, they don’t act rational. So thoughts come to mind thinking, “what’s best for me?” Then their inner self answers “Best be lonely” Our actions are dependent on who we are supposed to be. But from a little misshape, only then will they judge discriminately. And for… Continue reading In the midst of Inner Darkness

The best way to get over someone is to turn her into a literature. After a month, walang nagbago. Siguro meron pero di sya noticeable. Gumagaan pakiramdam ko pero di to the point na handa na kong mamuhay ng normal. Pakiramdam ko umaasa pa talaga ako eh pero di na kagaya dati. Gusto ko lang… Continue reading Crazy Planet

Hi. As much as I want to keep this to myself, I want to share it with you just so you know how someone with depression really go through. I had depression for the longest time, 3 years and ended just last year. God won the battle for me. But there are too many young… Continue reading My struggle with depression

You broke me and i’m still hoping that one day you’ll fix me. You broke me and I said sorry. Nagmumukha na talaga akong tanga kakahintay sa wala. Wala na ba talaga? Bakit nasasaktan ka parin? Nasasaktan ka ba dahil pinili mo siya? Nasasaktan ka ba dahil sa ginawa mo? Nasasaktan ka ba dahil naintindihan… Continue reading you broke me, i said sorry

Lage lang akong nandito yun ang sabi ko sayo dati. Lage kitang tutulungan sa mga bagay na di mo makakayanan mag isa. Lage kita papatnubayan sa mga gabing ikaw ay nag iisa. Hindi madaling maging ako. Kahit kailan hindi naging madaling matalo at tumayo. Pinili mong umupo nalang sa isang tabi habang iniaabot ko ang… Continue reading Isipin mo ko pag wala na ko.

Pinaramdam mo sakin ang pagmamahal na walang katulad nung ikaw pa ay akin. Ni minsan hindi pumasok sa utak ko na kaya mo kong iwan. Naging kampante ako sa salitang “Hindi kita kayang iwan.” Masakit palang maiwan. Masakit palang mawalan. Ilang beses ko na ding sinubukan na bawiin at baguhin ka. Alam ko kaseng yun… Continue reading Anong nangyari sa TAYO?

It’s not as straightforward as we hope it would be. It’s a roller coaster process. Some days you feel like you’re on top of the world and some days you feel like you’re right back where you started from. And when you have an uphill flow going for yourself on your journey, it can be… Continue reading Healing is Not Linear

Sa kwarto, kung saan madalas ako’y nag uubos ng oras at napaparito Tila ang dilim ang aking naging sandalan kung paano ko nilampasan ang unang kabanata ng aking panimulang tula. Sa pangawalang pagkakataon natuto na akong kumain ng lungkot  mabusog sa luha at damhin ang simoy ng negatibong bagay kung saan akoy nasanay na ng… Continue reading Kamusta ako?

Hindi sinabing ikaw ito, pero kung nababasa mo ito baka ikaw nga. Ang buhay naman ay choices and chances. May mga bagay na ‘di natin pinili pero nasa ating buhay. Pero malaking bahagi pa rin ng ating buhay ay pwede natin piliin. Kaya, ang pagiging weak ay choice at hindi chance. Huwag mong piliing maging weak. Sampung dahilan kung bakit hindi ka dapat sumuko… Continue reading Ang weak mo naman kung ayawan na

Sa aking paglisan, huwag sanag isipin na ika’y aking iniiwasan. Ikaw ay aking lilisanin dahil ayaw kong lungkot iyong maranasan. Sa aking paglisan, matapang mo sanang harapin ang kinabukasan. Sa aking paglisan, damhin mo ang ganda ng inang kalikasan.   Kahit ako’y lilisan, pagmamahal sayo kailanman hindi mababawasan. Sa aking paglisan, masasayang ala-ala ang aking… Continue reading Paglisan

Minsan, nakakalimutan ko na kung ano nga ba ang tunay na kahulugan ng kaligayahan, dahil matagal tagal na rin mula ng huli ko itong maramdaman. Hinayaan kong ang sarili ko’y balutin ng kalungkutan at malunod sa sarili kong mga insecurities. Mas binibigyang pansin ko ang mga pagkakamali ko. Mas binibigyang diin ko ang aking mga… Continue reading Heal 💚

I thought depression is not real, I mean I have friends who suffer this kind of mental illness but I always think that it’s “only” a battle of your mind and on how you will deal with it. EASY. EASY FOR ME. I thought you can “easily” escape on this chaos. NOT UNTIL I ALMOST… Continue reading THE BATTLE

I don’t need a doctor or should I say..a psychiatrist? –to tell me I’m depressed. I don’t want to lie to myself anymore. I have fallen in this black hole  and sadly up until now I don’t know how to crawl back to light. How? How do I get back? When a long time ago… Continue reading No Holds Barred

Arise, my beloved Though winter has come And you felt you have none Remember, you have the One   Arise, my beloved Though sadness stole your youth Don’t worry, soon you’ll have your fruit Just let Me take care of your roots   Arise, my beloved Though you may feel you’re failing And you’re tired… Continue reading Arise, my beloved!

Let me introduce you to my lonely Hey this is my lonely It chooses no time nor place It chooses no memories nor pain It doesn’t matter if it’s 2am or not Sometimes my lonely visits me even when the sun is still brightly shining It turns days to nights It never fails to make… Continue reading My Lonely

In many instances & situations, I want to go back in time, rewind my life, go fix & change things in the past to make a difference in the present, stop or prevent any negative, unnecessary & nullifying aftermaths. But the reality is that I don’t have what it takes in doing that time travelling.… Continue reading Secret Identity

Madami kang tanong na bakit ikaw ang kailangang makaranas ng nanyayare sayo ngayon. Hindi mo alam kung ano yung pakiramdam mo, minsan wala ka namang problema pero hindi ka masaya. You are emotionally and mentally tired, kasi mas madaming negatibong bagay yun napapansin mo. Nilalamon yung ng iilang positibong bagay sa utak mo. Malungkot ka… Continue reading WHY ME?

I am not there yet. I am just starting to pick myself up, piece by piece. I am not there yet. I can still hear some voices telling me to quit. I am still shaking because of my anxiety. I can still feel the pain of not being good enough. I can still feel the… Continue reading Not There Yet

Ngayon lang yan. Kung masaya ka, sulitin mo. Kung nahihirapan ka, tiyagain mo. Lahat naman yan lilipas. Mahirap kung mahirap, mahirap talaga! Pero kakasubok mo, kakalaban mo, kakapalag mo, Magugulat ka nalang nagawa mo na! Magugulat ka nalang tapos na pala! Ngayon lang yan. Kung masaya ka, sulitin mo. Kung nahihirapan ka, tiyagain mo. Lahat… Continue reading Alam ko, mahirap. Mahirap talaga.

I keep asking myself what is wrong with me? Why I can’t forgivr and forget? Am I on a right track? 2018 has been the year of this shit which I cannot force myself to forget him and forgive what he has done to me. Some people told me that it was just a small… Continue reading How Can I forgive If I Can’t Forget?

A lot of us, admit it or not, are letting ourselves be overpowered by negativity. I myself have a lot of regrets in my entire life, I regret those times which I should’ve done something I really wanted but I doubted myself and lacked confidence. I never trusted my instincts, decisions, and choices. I used… Continue reading Note to Self: I can!