About two years ago, I made a conscious decision to close my heart to romance. The countless rejections and heartbreaks I had experienced in the past had turned my once soft and marupok heart into something akin to a block of ice. I became numb and incapable of feeling love or attraction towards anyone. Although… Continue reading Hoping But Not Expecting
Category: Confessions
My Last Letter To You
I’ve never thought I’ve met you again after so many years. It was just a wishful thinking but God took it seriously. And I’ve never thought I’ll still love you this much despite the years that gone by. We never had a history. We are merely acquaintance if I can even call us that. You… Continue reading My Last Letter To You
Unsent Letter to the Guy who Never Looked at Me
N, I have been admiring you quietly for two years now, and I am still here. I have vivid memories of our first meeting, which was your first one, but it was the third time for me. You have no idea I was admiring you, even in those times when I didn’t even know your… Continue reading Unsent Letter to the Guy who Never Looked at Me
Paano Kung Nag Confess Ako?
Masaya kaya ako kung nag confess ako? Magiging mas exciting kaya ang araw ko kung lagi tayong mag uusap? Masaya ka rin kaya saakin? Gusto mo rin kaya ako? Magbabago ba ang takbo ng buhay ko kung ginawa ko ang mag confess sayo? Mga tanong na hindi ko alam kung paano masasagot. Lagi akong nakasubaybay… Continue reading Paano Kung Nag Confess Ako?
Kelan ba?
Kelan kaya darating yung ako naman yung pipiliin? Yung hindi ako hahayaan na laging magquestion about sa worth ko. Yung tipong masisingit ako sa oras kahit pa gaano kabusy yung schedule niya. Yung hindi ko na kailangan maghintay ng matagal kung kelan ako muling maaalala. Kelan kaya darating yung para sakin? Kasi ang hirap ilaban… Continue reading Kelan ba?
Tugon Sa Aking Panalangin
I appreciate you as an answer to my prayer. I don’t want to give you mixed signals because you don’t deserve confusion but, clarity and sincerity. Though it may take away the thrill and mystery. I’d rather be true to you with pure intentions in developing a genuine connection. Even though I am partly afraid… Continue reading Tugon Sa Aking Panalangin
Under That Yellow Umbrella
Tag ulan na naman pala.. Alin ba ang mas masarap hanapin, Yung mainit na sabaw? Yung kape? O yung mainit mong bisig? Hindi ko napigilan ang ngumiti habang pinamasdan ang mga batang nagtatampisaw sa ulan. Ang iba’y nagpapaanod pa ng barkong papel sa umaagos na tubig dala ng ulan. Sana lahat, di ba? Iyon bang genuine… Continue reading Under That Yellow Umbrella
It’s just one of those days…
I guess it’s just one of those days. It’s just a typical night. I just got home from work. Out of boredom, I was searching in Messenger for conversations with former friends. As I searched for a certain word, I stumbled upon a familiar convo – a group chat, if you may. It was a… Continue reading It’s just one of those days…
Not Even…Until…
Not even the most painful moments Could ever put me to write. Not even the happiest and most silent hours Could ever make my thoughts align. I was barren with words that used to conceive The biggest ideas of how to stitch them To make a tapestry of poems. I was blinded by fear and… Continue reading Not Even…Until…
Lost chapter: Wednesday morning
If you ever wake up beside me, who can make my life flow easier and makes me laugh a lot, maybe you kept me. And wish we did what we ought to be what lovers do. Life will be much easier with you cause we were there for each other, someone that can be sad… Continue reading Lost chapter: Wednesday morning
I Became Addicted To Dating
Last 4 years ago, I was in a healthy and good relationship. However, it only lasted for 1 and a half year due to some reasons. (He moved back to Korea and LDR didn’t agree with us) Hence I thought he’s the one. When our relationship ended, I was in so much pain. It’s as… Continue reading I Became Addicted To Dating
My Mr. Somebody Out There
Little by little I picked up the pieces of my heart when he slipped it cause he can’t hold it tight like he promised. He told me once that his someone I can rely on and a shoulder to cry on no matter what. But in the end, he chose to prove to me I… Continue reading My Mr. Somebody Out There
To the person who believed in me
To the person who believed in me, Thank you. Thank you for appreciating my strengths. Thank you for believing in my potential. Thank you for letting me know how I can still improve on. Thank you for the encouragement. I know that God used you to remind me to believe in myself when doubts and… Continue reading To the person who believed in me
7 years
Di ko akalaing ganito ako ka-Tanga,
Nag-tanim ako ng di kaylanman magbubunga.
To someone I once never had and never will be
We got lost from the moment I realized the feeling was true You left unaware, how I wish I could tell you Took us a decade to have the courage Revealing unspoken thoughts that made our hearts and souls ravaged Both minds fed up with these sh*tty “what if’s” What if I told you I’m… Continue reading To someone I once never had and never will be
And the Universe Conspired
I can’t help but compare my last attempt for love versus the love I am chasing right now. Before I had to push myself to like what the other guy wants, hoping that we can meet somewhere in between. Now, we just coincide gracefully and unexpectedly; liking the same things (I guess) and trying to… Continue reading And the Universe Conspired
Unsent message for you, Mark
It’s me, hi. I know. I’m the problem it’s me. I want you to know that this takes a lot of encouragement from my inner self. To write this down. Write down what I’m feeling. What are my true feelings. And to send this to you. Read this. I’m only gonna say this once. For… Continue reading Unsent message for you, Mark
I love you, but all we had was a game.
I love you.How deep? I do not know.For how long? I can no longer remember.How many times did I say it to myself? I’ve already lost count.For what reason? Too many to mention I love you.To the extent that I gave my allTo the time that I change myself for youTo the point that I’m no… Continue reading I love you, but all we had was a game.
To My Almost
It’s still fresh to me how everything started between the two of us. I can still remember how epic fail it was and how timely you came in into my life. I am happy you came. I love how much time you spent with me and your word “basta ikaw” is very comforting. I feel… Continue reading To My Almost
Slow Burn or No Burn?
I am in love with a person who is unsure of his feelings… I met him last year. Nagsimula sa pangaasar hanggang makilala ko siya at magustuhan ko siya. Lumalim yung feelings pero tinago ko lang. Nagkaron ng mga pagkakataon na parang pinapakita niyang gusto niya ko kaya naman umasa ako. We talked… Continue reading Slow Burn or No Burn?
I am a Walking Redflag
I’m sorry I’m sorry for making you feel na ayaw ko na. I’m sorry for making you feel na iiwanan kita. What I really want is to give me peace of mind by telling me that you like me. I won’t leave you…sana… if you give me at least 6 hours more to respond… Continue reading I am a Walking Redflag
NUMb
I feel numb. From all the things that I have, the things that I must do, the traits that I must be. I feel unexistent. Terribly wanted to cry but my eyes can’t produce a drop. My soul feels heavy but my heart feels empty. When will I overcome this? To whom will I open… Continue reading NUMb
YOU
YOU You who give light and color to my achromatic world. You make me feel loved beyond words. You show real effort in willingness to spend time. You share your life openly without a doubt. You cheer me up in my every word and work. You are not tired of asking if everything is fine… Continue reading YOU
Ninety-nine
Ninety-nine times I faced my own battles when I decided to get over you. When I choose to be the prison of my own foolishness. Ninety-nine hours was spent just to pretend that not having you around isn’t a big deal when in fact it slowly dripping the pain inside of me. Ninenty-nine nights passed… Continue reading Ninety-nine
Beware of the Nice Guy!
Avoid falling inlove to the nice guy. Why? ‘Cause when he breaks your heart it will hurt you so bad. Why? ‘Cause you think he is supposed to be nice and nice guys don’t break your heart like bad boys do. Then you’ll wish you fall for the bad boys instead, Atleast at first you… Continue reading Beware of the Nice Guy!
The Unsent Letter
The Unsent letter I love writing letters. How I wish to receive it once. Letters are sincere and heartfelt to read. I love how technology evolves in ways of communication. A lot of ways to send your thoughts. But, if I were to choose. I would love letters to have. Some media can be sent… Continue reading The Unsent Letter
Talo na talaga ako.
Minsan iniisip ko kung nagkaron ka ba talaga ng feelings para sakin? Anong ibig sabihin ng “good morning” at “good night” mo?Ano nga ba ang ibig sabihin ng pag uupdate mo sa akin?Naging comfortable ka lang ba talaga ikwento sa akin yung buong araw mo? Ano nga ba ang ibig sabihin ng pag dedemand mo… Continue reading Talo na talaga ako.
Simula, Gitna at Katapusan
Simula, Gitna at Katapusan Simula nang aking Umaga Ikaw Ang laman ng isipan. Dumapit man Ang magHapon Hindi ka nawaglit sa kamalayan. Bubungad man sa kawalan Ikaw lang Ang syang tinatanawan. Taya ko ngang pagsinta mukhang wala Ng katapusan. Pagkat sa Araw- Araw na nagdadaan sigurado Akong Ikaw lang. Ngunit dumating Tayo sa Gitna… Continue reading Simula, Gitna at Katapusan
My Sunflower
My Sunflower Magical will be a word on how I will describe my feelings for you. You are a shining star among the billions. Set in a place that no one will dare to touch. Undaunted even in the midst of uncertainties and chaos. Numerous people want to get your beauty and attention. Frankly,… Continue reading My Sunflower
In An Online World
In an online world, Where we can talk, seen, and react as much as we want. Where certain and uncertainty meets at the same time. Where things can be said and done with a little bit of humor and confidence. Just like how I came up with this little confession that says… We may be… Continue reading In An Online World