Sorry I got busy, the last time you called I don’t know what to say. So I didn’t pick up your call since I was with someone. You called several times after but I was drunk on my passions and chasing my dreams.
I just want to say thank you for accepting me again. I know I had a lot of shortcomings in our relationship. I chose to run away with anything and everyone that can help me forget my pain and failures. But none of them really can forgive and love me as you do. The world failed me. I failed myself for putting my faith in him in the first place.
I know you don’t like it when I talk badly about myself. I know you can tell that my heart is screaming while I was writing this letter. You don’t deserve to be treated this way since after all of the good things and love that you have given me. This is what I did in return. I’m sorry. I know I have to make it up to you. But your grace and love still overflow for me despite it all. I don’t really know what happened to me. The world, people and places seem to be alluring and dazzling that it blinded me. I guess in hindsight I knew it would happen but I still chose to continue on out of pride. You told me that I don’t have to make it up to you. What matters is that I came back.
You’re so good to me and I will always remember what you did for me and for the people that you love. One of your amazing qualities that I don’t have is your boundless capacity to love everyone. To love the people who hurt you or don’t know you at all. How I wish I can have a heart like yours, You said that I can and all that I have to do is believe and have faith. There are things that I believe wholly in my heart, I believe that you died and rose again for my sins. That you’re the Son of God and the Lamb who swept my sins away. I believe in your love, Lord. I believe in your plans and promises for me. I believe that you only meant well when you were calling me. I didn’t pick up since I was busy dealing with the world. You know that sometimes it can get hard and heartbreaking. But you never gave up on me. Thank you for being my friend and comfort.
I’m sorry if I sometimes forget your greatness. I just want to say thank you for everything. My heart is yearning for you. I’m sorry I let the world break my heart. Every time my heart breaks it breaks yours too. I’m sorry if every time I run to you is only when I have problems. The problems that I created in the first place. But you always save me from my reckless ways with your love and grace. I hope we can fix our relationship again. I will hold onto your promises like you hold onto me. You’re the one thing that I know that will never fail me. I know that one day that you will come back again. I’ll do my best to spend more time with you. I hope we can start over again? You never fail in pursuing my heart no matter where I go and or what I’ve done. For that thank you, my first love, Jesus.