I came to realize that unless I admit to myself that I have fallen in love with you, I will never get closure to what had happened between us. I will never be fully okay. I will never be at peace.
Perhaps it is time to admit it to myself so that finally I will be free.
I will be free from pain in knowing that we cannot be together. I will be free of this heart ache that has been with me from the beginning. I will be free from my misery.
Yes, I loved you.
I loved you then even how many times I have denied it to you and to myself.
I loved you. I don’t know the exact reason why. But I do.
I loved you.
I love you, still.
And I pray that I will get past loving you.
Because I want closure.
Because I want to move on.