Finally, I had my one last cry. For years, every time I heard the song One Last Cry, I always remember him. Nakulong kasi ako sa idea na baka sakaling pwede pa kami. Baka sakaling dumating ang panahon that we will have the same faith and we could be together. Nagkamali ako.
My ex and I don’t have the same faith but because I loved him, binaliwala ko iyon and still had relationship with him. Sa ibang tao, okay lang naman iyon but my conviction told me otherwise. So, kahit masakit I broke up with him.
Akala ko sumusunod na ako 100% pero hindi pala dahil kahit wala na kami I still have this thought, “Kung pareho lang sana kami ng faith, pwede pa kami”. Unconsciously, I rebelled against God. I saw Him as kaaway, isang hadlang sa lovelife ko. It took years before I realized that and when I did I asked God for His forgiveness.
Finally, I’ve learned to let go of my ex. I still hopes that he will know and experience Jesus the way I do but this time without selfish motives.
Finally, I’ve moved on.