Your silence said,
It’s not that I don’t care for you,
It’s just that I’ve cared for people who have taken me for granted.
It’s not that I don’t believe you care for me,
It’s just that many did, and still cares, but just can’t give me the comfort I need.
It’s not that I don’t trust you,
It’s just that I had trusted the wrong people for the longest time.
It’s not that I don’t appreciate you,
It’s just that I’ve seen efforts much greater than you know but just eventually faded away.
It’s not that I don’t want you,
It’s just that I never had what I want and I just stopped wishing I will ever have.
It’s not that I don’t need you,
It’s just that I never thought of getting what I need since I’m used to giving what they need.
It’s not that I’m not being real,
It’s just that I have lived for being the person they wanted me to be, the mask they wanted to see.
It’s not that I don’t want to be with you,
It’s just that I can’t ease the pain of ending the day without you.
It’s not that I don’t love you,
It’s just that I’m too scared to show you, to make you feel how much I really do.
And yes, I heard you. I understood those words untold.
And whenever you’re staring off in space, I can feel you’re tired.
Tired of being wanted but never had what you wanted.
Tired of starting over, and over, and over, again.
Tired of hurting, pretending.
Tired of proving your choices, your mistakes.
Tired of faking your smiles just to avoid being questioned of how you have been.
Tired of always being okay, just being okay.
I’ve seen them in your eyes staring off in space,
I’ve felt it in your kiss behind closed doors.
And yes, I know you can get over it.
Get over with the hollow feeling inside you.
Get over with the pain demanding to be felt.
Get over with regrets from the choices you’ve made.
Let me be with you as you get over it,
Let me wrap you around my arms,
And say, it’s okay not to be okay.
Let me make you feel the warmth of my body,
And whisper, there will be no more lonely nights.
Let me stand by your side,
And tell you, you’re not alone.
Let me spend every night,
With you and your tea time.
Let me begin every morning,
Listening to the story of your dreams.
Let me be your friend,
And share your laughter from naughty things.
Let me be your lover,
And feel your intimate hugs and kisses,
Let me be your partner,
And stay through bad times, and celebrate the good days.
Let me embrace your imperfections.
Let me be your strength in your weakest point.
Let me love you for the rest of our lives.
You now have me.
It will be a different story.
You now have me.
No more games, no more lies.
You now have me.
Your friend, your lover.
You now have me.
Your partner, your future.
You now have me.
I am yours, please be mine.
You now have me.
Loving you, so bad.
You have me. You are home.