I don’t know if you’ll be able to read this, but I just want you to know these…
You… made me feel that I am not worth fighting for, that I am not worth pursuing for, I tried to understand everything in you… but in the middle of saving you, you break me into tiny pieces that until now, I’m still searching for.
You… made me feel that am not beautiful, that I am not worthy for your friends to know that you dated me… that your “friend” that is so much more than me is worth instagramming for. That hurts a lot tho.
You… made me feel that I am less of everything that I am… and in the deep sense, It’s okay.
YOU KNOW WHY?
BECAUSE YOU… made me feel that I am home when we talked… when you tell me about your cute nieces… your cute cousins and you made me adore you by the dreams that you have in your heart and soul and because you are the most thoughtful man I’ve ever met and from the way you love your mom, and especially loving your dad even if it hurts for your soul… you’re family oriented and that is a goal.
You… made me feel secure when you held my arms because of my clumsiness.
You… made me think of special things in little things that you do for me. Like believing in every dream that I have in my heart and you made my heart skip a beat. Always.
You… made me believe that someday, someone greater than you will fall in love with me and I’ll be happier because that time, it’ll be right.
You… made me feel thankful that we didn’t end up together even though I still want to.
You… made me think of my worth and how I should love myself even more. That whatever action a man is doing, you should never assume, never demand and never believe in everything unless, stated and proven.
Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for making me cry, for making me overthink everything, for making me the saddest person I can be. It made me stronger. It made me realize how I can do for love. Meeting you was a curse for hurting me big time but also a blessing for making me stronger at the same time.
You are still amazing, and I hope you know that. You are still beautiful soul in my eyes.. you’ll always be. maybe you did that because I am not the right for you and you are not the right for me too. Yes, I can go on without single hope in my heart now. Thank you.
