After all these time without you, I haven’t reconciled this pain in me. I have yet to make peace with it. But I don’t even know where to begin. They promised me that time would fix it, but just the thought of thinking about you takes me right back to yesterday. I was so happy when you said that you wanted to court me. It feels like thousands of butterflies are having a party in my stomach. I was so amazed how you show respect to my parents and especially to me. I know, on that very exact moment, I already fall in love with you.
Time goes by and fast, and my love for you is going so deeply that makes me more excited to say YES to you once you ask me officially. But destiny is playing his famous game. One day, i haven’t hear anything from you. I got sad. I cried. But I didn’t get mad. Coz I think that maybe you are busy at work and your daily routines, or maybe something is bothering you and you want to keep it with yourself. And that you needed some space. So I let you.
But it’s been a long time now my love. I can’t help it but I really am missing you and it hurts me that maybe you are not. Did I do something wrong? What happened to you? What happened to us? So many questions in my mind yet no answers. So now, I am telling you all of these with a brave heart. I am sorry my love. I am sorry if I did something wrong. I am sorry if I cannot please you. I am sorry for liking you. I am sorry for loving you. I am sorry for everything I don’t know. I really am sorry.
And thank you. Thank you for all the time you have given me. Thank you for all the smiles you have shared with me. Thank you for giving butterflies in my life even for a short time. Thank you for allowing me to love you, my love. I know that there’s a reason for everything. I may not know it now, but maybe soon. But like the other people say, if it’s meant to be, it will be.
This hurts but I must bid my goodbye into something that I am not sure anymore. You left me somewhere hanging. But don’t worry my love, I am not mad. I will always pray for your safety and happiness. Please take care of yourself always my love. I miss you. I love you.