I want to bake cakes for your birthdays.
I want to give you gifts like watches, so that you’ll remember me when you look at it.
I want to tap you when you’re not so confident and say, “You can do it. I’m praying for you.” but most of the time all I can say is “you can do it.” coz, for now, I want to keep it to myself that I talk to God about you. For your best.
I want to give you a hug when you’re feeling down, but I can’t coz we have boundaries as friends. I’ll prefer God to comfort your unwell heart.
I want to say, “you’re so handsome tonight.” when I know you made efforts to look good for a certain event, even if it wasn’t meant for me. Sometimes I did, but in a form of jokes. Coz, hey! I’m good at it. Making my real feelings a joke at times.
I want to share every detail of my day, but I choose to grab my notebook and write and let you read it someday, if we’re really meant for each other.
I want to say how amazing you are as a person. How strong you are. How dedicated you are in doing your crafts and how dependent you are to the Lord.
I want to tell you all of these someday.
I hope that day will come.