I’ve read a lot of messages.. been told with a lot of advices. I’ve listened and cried to a lot of songs just as much as how I did with the photos I’ve deleted one after another. It was never easy. But I want to believe that with all that had happened, all I need for now is to accept and let it go.
My wishes to feel the same warmth I have given,
To get the same assurance of commitment,
To be the reason behind your courage to try,
Or just simply be the person whom your heart will sincerely long for too.
No matter how hard I try, I know now that they will never happen.
They will never happen because you never dared to take a step. You never saw it worth the risk of knowing and letting me be a part of you. And no matter how long I’ve waited, no matter how ready I am to catch you, you simply didn’t want to fall for me.
If I may share a few more parting words, read them and let them sink in..
That you are lovable and you are loved. That you can be vulnerable and safe at the same time, if you would just let a person care for you, too. Don’t be too guarded just because you’ve been hurt before. Don’t be too afraid to try and trust a person once more. Because sometimes, in our crazy attempts to gamble out our hearts, we could find that someone who is equally crazy to find belongingness in us, too.
Charging to experience, I want to believe that you are a necessary part of the person I am supposed to be. And so, as I bid farewell to my daydreams and wishes, I turn this last page of our once-upon-a-time; that THE HAPPILY EVER AFTER will never be part of our story. Maybe separately, but never us, together.
