You,
I thought I was fine. I thought I was healed, fixed and whole again. I thought I am able to continue and have a brand new start again in a place that is far from you— away from those pain you’ve caused me. I thought I am able and ready to go to the next chapter of my journey, with just by myself. I thought it wouldn’t be able to bother me again, at night.. full of emotions, overthinking, forcing myself to sleep, crying out for help, praying repeatedly and fighting against my heart, mind and soul. I thought I was able to share you to my friends and family again without any burdens in my heart— peacefully and carefree. But I was wrong.
Til now, it still makes me break down. I lost my self to the point it makes me out of focus on the things around me. I was mentally, emotionally and spiritually error. I EVEN FORGOT MY WORTH. I know deep down in me that I am a warrior but because of you, it seems like I was one of those hopeless people asking for love and mercy. But, I trust in God’s greatness and His greatest purposes and promises in my life.
I know God didn’t gave me these pain just for nothing.
I know you might reading this or you ain’t care anymore but this I tell you, thank you— thank you for you once cared about me. Thank you for you once listened to me. Or should I say, thank you for you once loved me, did you? Don’t worry about me. Just like you, I know I will be fine very much soon. Or possibly, when time flies, I know I will be healed and be whole again.
Yours sincerely,
me.💛