I came to a point when I do not know my worth. I thought I lost it. I lost it because I was hurt, neglected, and betrayed. I lost it because I allowed it to be lost.
During those times, I was really broken. I felt like I was shattered in pieces. I felt unloved and unworthy. I asked God, “God why do I need to go through this pain? Can you take this away from me?” It was so painful that there were some nights where I needed to cry alone. I needed to hide to the people around me that I am hurting because I do not want them to worry about me. I bore it all alone. There were restless and sleepless nights. Nights when I already fell asleep because of my deep cries.
For months, I was lost. I was in pain. I was hurting.
But God did not allow me to stay on that situation. He used His people to help me get up again. He used His people to remind me how valuable I am in His eyes. There were still times that I am remembering how painful it was for me, but little did I know, during those times that I am allowing God to move in my life, I am slowly healing. The wounds in my heart were mending. That time, I regain myself and knew my worth.
He told me that I am loved (Romans 8:35, 37-39).
He told me that I am forgiven (Ephesians 1:7).
He told me that I am worthy (Psalms 139:13-16).
He told me that I am His child (Galatians 3:26).
He told me that I am chosen (Ephesians 1:4).
From then on, I found my freedom in Him. I was freed from all the things that chained me and imprisoned me. He has freed me and has given me a new life.
I can really say that in Him, I was a new creation. I found my worth on the One who holds my future.