I blamed the sun for not coming back yesterday
As the rain flows down like a tears drifting in the river
I blamed the rain for not stopping when i need to slow down and follow you from behind
I also blamed myself for not bringing that umbrella, it could’ve not worsen things from breaking apart if only i didn’t forget it
But no, i shouldn’t be blaming myself
If you care, you could’ve look back and see me drenching and shivering in cold
But you didn’t
Cause you didn’t care
You just walked as if nothing happened
You have walked as fast as you could
As if you are being chased out by demons
You didn’t look back, you’ve run fast, faster than the lightning that is about to strike my heart
But then you suddenly stopped, i saw you stare at me in a jiffy
I can’t see any sadness nor sorrows,
All i can see is happiness
I guess you’re happy because you already have the chance to leave me
Then you stopped and continue walking
I can no longer see you
I get up and try to dry the tears that keeps on flowing from my eyes
The rain stopped, my heart also stops from beating
It feels like all the weight of pain, madness and sadness was all put together in my knees
I can’t get up
I can’t move
All i can feel now is sadness and numbness
How will i start?
Will i be able to forget about you?
Will i be able to delete and throw away all the love that i felt for you?
I tried to get up, then i run
faster than i could
i didn’t look back
Cause if i did
I might follow you again
and continue with my madness
