Sa mga oras na ginagawa ko itong content na to, ito yong mga oras na hindi ako makatulog dahil iniisip ko parin kung paano tayo humantong sa ganitong sitwasyon. Kung saan, pareho na nating binitawan at pilit kinakalimutan ang mga masasarap na “SANA” na ating binuo mula palang nung umpisa.
Sa puntong ito ng buhay ko, ngayon lang ako nakakilala ng isang tulad mo. Yong babaeng ilalapit ako kay God. Babaeng wala kang maririnig kundi good things and words coming to god. I really admires you from day one, and getting stronger as day by day passed by. Sa twing kausap kita, ramdam ko yong presence ni god, and it really help me a lot to realized na ang dami kong pagkukulang sakanya.
Yes, she was a Christian and I am a Catholic. Alam ko, walang problema sa pagiging Catholic, but I admit na nagkulang ako. And god has a purpose why I need to know this woman. I think napakarare nalang ngayon na makaencounter ng girl na, ikkwento sayo si god, and someone who are willing to share words of god. Natatandaan ko pa dati, some of my friends ask me to join bible study, but I always said na “Sure pag nagkaextra time”. They kept on reaching on me, but they received the same responds coming to me. But when this woman came to cross my life. Hindi siya napagod iencourage ako na “try to open bible everyday, it will help you”. And attend ka ng online service, makakarelate ka.
And one day, I saw myself reading a bible. That was the day na nasabi ko, you really bring me here, na ginawa kang instrument ni god just to open my heart to the way that I forgot to be with. I started to felt the words of god as we always talked about it. I also try to attend online worship regularly.
I admit, marami akong pagkukulang sa pananampalataya! Masyado akong naging abala sa trabaho, sa kaibigan, sa pamilya, sa mga bagay na magpapataas ng antas ng buhay ko. Akala ko kasi dati enough na yong magdasal lang ako, at magsimba lang twing linggo. Pero hindi pala dapat ganon LANG. Dapat pala laging una si god sa bucket list natin.
Thank you to that woman, who tought me to have devotion and be inspired into god’s word everyday.