The Last Letter I wrote for you

Hoping this will be the last letter that I will write for you. 2019 na, dapat iniwan ko na rin sa 2018 lahat ng Hopes and Pain. You are one of the nicest person I have. One of the best and strongest person I have ever known. That’s why I fell inlove with you. It’s been 4 years since the first day na umasa ako na baka makita mo rin ako. I even wrote a lot of letters tungkol sayo. You became my strength whenever I felt weak. My hero, My knight in shining armor that saves me whenever I needed help. My shoulder to cry on, My happy pill that always believes in me. You were my cheerleader that enlightens me up whenever I have a battle to fight. Kaya nga akala ko pwede tayo, but it was just my false hope. Nasaktan ako ng maraming beses pero nandito pa rin ako, still willing to fight kahit alam kong talo na ako. But it snapped me when I saw you together with the girl we always talked about. Yung babaeng willing mong ipaglaban. Bumalik lahat ng pain na akala kong naiwan na sa 2018. I am just good on hiding things, to pretend that I am strong. But because of that I realize a lot of thinhs, na ako mismo ang gumagawa ng sarili kong pain. Binibigyan ko kasi lahat ng meaning ang ginagawa mo eh. Masyado kasi akong umasa sa posibilidad na makikita mo rin ako. And right now, ayoko ng lumaban pa. You know everything about me, alam mo lahat ng pain. At ayoko na ring maging burden pa sayo. This time I want to free myself, I want to finally let you go for real. It won’t be easy, hindi magiging mabilis. Hindi ko rin naman kayang iwasan ka ng sobra cause we’re BESTFRIENDS. Siguro I’ll just always put in mind na “MAGKAIBIGAN” lang tayo. Thank you for all the patience kahit alam kong napapagod at nahihirapan ka na rin dahil sakin. We may not end up together, but for me? YOU REALLY ARE WORTH THE RISK. WORTH THE FIGHT. I may not won on this battle, but all those happy memories we had? For the friendship and trust that we built? Alam kong panalo na ako run. This 2019, I really want to end all my hopes for us. You are my soulmate, sa Friendship nga lanh. Sinabi ko naman sayo diba? I prayed for your happiness, even if I won’t be the reason of that happiness. Finally, I really want to let you go. Siguro nga hanggang dito na lang, hindi man yung ending na pinapangarap ko. Pero baka dito may forever tayo. I cried a lot because of so much pain, but the happiness and love that you made me feel? Nag iisa ka eh. I owe you. And I love you so much.