It’s been months since the day you broke up with me dahil sabi mo pagod ka na sa paulit-ulit na away, gusto mo ng time sa sarili mo at gusto mo unahin ang pangarap mo–ang pangarap mo na hindi ako kasama.
That was one of the most heartbreaking parts of my life to the point that I found myself drowning in my own tears. I felt lost, unloved and unsure of my own identity like a broken glass that can never be fixed. The process was so hard and I needed to go through with it, but it’s working because I’m on my way to finally… being okay.
And here you are, out of nowhere trying to fix things your way and trying to bring me back at gusto mo madaliin ang paghilom ng aking mga sugat.
I don’t know what to feel.
All I know is I’m happy that you want to try to pick up my pieces again.
But I want you to know that this time, I’m choosing myself. I am protecting my heart to not burn again because of the fire you’ve made. The fire you’ve caused.
I’m protecting and trying not to loose myself again in this relationship and I am protecting myself by not giving all I’ve got for the sake of your love.
Sarili ko muna ang pipiliin ko, sarili ko muna ang mamahalin ko at sarili ko muna ang aalagaan ko. Wag na natin ipilit at pilitin pa ang pagmamahal na hindi na dapat.
And I want you to know that I’m still grateful that God has let you be a part of my lessons in life.
You’ve done enough and okay na ‘yun.
Let’s now grow together but in separate ways.
There is so much more to live for and I pray you that someday you will find yours. 😊
✍claydine