Hey, you.
Please don’t hurt me. Please don’t hurt me, cause I don’t plan on hurting you. We may be young but I’ve been through a lot of heartbreaks, and maybe you too. And I don’t wanna go through all that pain again even if it’s worth it.
I’ve dated a cheater. And I don’t wanna date a cheater ever again. I won’t forgive you. I need to let you go. No matter how much you love me, no matter how much you say sorry, no matter how many times you explain and no matter how much I love you, I have to let you go. Even if it’s going to kill me, even if it’s gonna hurt like hell, I will let you go because I deserve better. I deserve someone who would love me, only me. I deserve to be the only one.
I have bad days, well I guess we all have those days. Some days I’m sad with no explanation. There are days that I just wanna be alone. But I want to know that you would stay on those days, that you’ll be there. I want to make sure that you want me when I’m happy and you still want me even when I’m sad. I want to know that after that hard tiring day you’ll still be there. I want to know if I’ll see you at the finish line, smiling and making sure that it’s just a bad day and tomorrow’s going to be alright.
Please make time. I’m a clingy girl. I know some guys doesn’t like clingy girls, sorry. It doesn’t mean that you have to take me out but if you want to we can go play at an arcade, or go for a road trip, or go visit museums, or eat all day, or go for an adventure, we can hang out and watch series or a movie. Or take long naps. Or do tasks. Or I can teach you how to cook, or we can bake. We can do anything. I love boyfriend days. If ever you’re busy for a day, a week or a month, please leave a message. Let me know that you’re gonna be busy and that you are going to be alright. Know that if everything’s already stressful I’m just one call away, you can rant all you want, and I’m going to listen to every word you will say and after that I’m going to make sure that when we end the call you’re already okay and ready to go back to being busy.
I don’t want you to pay every time we go out. We can totally split the bill.
You can tell me anything you want. You can tell me if you love or hate dogs or kids. I wanna know you. I want to know your deepest secret, your fears, your goals, even your childhood crush. Or how your day was. I don’t care if it’s silly or dark, all I care is that you chose to tell me.
We may fight. We may fight over the aux chord, or how terrible driver I am, or how I’m too lazy, or how you’re too lazy, or about that girl who smiled at you, or what I’m wearing. No matter how small or big our fight is please make sure that we both win in the end. That our relationship is bigger than any fight. That love wins.
If you’re not looking for a serious relationship, leave. Just leave. I may be young but I don’t play games. I want commitment. I want consistency. I want permanent. I want someone who’s willing to stay. I want someone who has plans, for me or for himself. Know that I don’t date guys I don’t wanna marry. Cause what’s the point? If you don’t wanna marry someone then why date them? Why should you get to know them? Why should you love them? If marriage is not the goal, what is?
I’m thrilled to meet you. And please stay.
With Love,
Your future girl
