LThe first time we’ve met was not in a typical place like malls/parks, for ours took place at the mountain’s jumping-off point. Our passion towards climbing made our path crossed and with that, a story was written.
You always keep on telling me that I am a strong woman who doesn’t easily gives up on trail. You must be right. I am strong. I am strong to survive number of mountains but I was not strong enough to conquer my feelings for you.Every mountain we both tried to survive is a growing feeling that I could no longer hide. I am in late 20’s, single, has a fear of starting over. You’re in early 30’s, single, has a fear of being rejected.
Would it be possible?
I love you but I am being hunted of many fears that are unknown to me. There is no single day that I won’t be thingking of you. From the moment I opened my eyes, the thought of you is the first thing I have in mind. No matter how busy I am, I would pause for a while, think of you and smile. At night, before I go to bed, I will whisper my ‘i love you,goodnight’ hoping that you’ll be hearing it from apart.
I tried, even tried harder to fight this feeling hoping I can win over it. I had pushed you away from me and even avoided you but you kept on coming back. You’ve asked me but I left you’re question unanswered. I am too scared to tell you that I love you, that’s why.
Sorry if I am not this brave enough to admit the true feeling. I am a woman. I’ll not be calling it as an ego but a self respect.
For now, I have to stay away from you to allow myself to grow. In God’s perfect time, if fate permits…we might be able to see each other again on trails. When that time comes, let’s hope that you’re already brave and I’m no longer scared.
