The moment I saw you, I start writing another book. You are the subject of a beautiful introduction and the topics of new beginnings in every chapter. It’s full of hopes, growth, and the future.
Each page is filled with our laughs together and the dreams we’re pursuing. It tells of tomorrows with you and the life that I want to live.
As the flip goes on, many changes happened. We are already apart from each other. But my feelings continue to grow, and I hope to hold you again if God designed us to be together.
My heart is loyal to you, even if our conversation begins to fade. We just talk once or twice a month. We are not already close like before, but you still have a special place in my heart. I’m willing to wait even if I don’t know if we have the same feelings.
I’m trying to convince myself to move on and to let go of you. I don’t know. My heart won’t allow me to. It says that as long as you are not in a relationship, it’s willing to wait. It will continue this book until there’s a chance to hope for.
I’m not so desperate to get noticed. I’m just happy viewing your Facebook stories and hitting that like or heart react when you’ve posted on Facebook.
My heart misses you so much. It longs for your smile and your Hi, for your effort and for every time you crack a joke. But I won’t send a message always. I know you are preparing to pursue someone you are praying for. I give respect to that.
I’m praying for you always. I know I once manipulated God and being selfish about my thoughts. For now, I’m happy talking to God about you, not to be mine, but for being thankful to Him that I knew someone like you. I am telling God how HE beautifully created your soul. I’m praying for your health and safety, for your spiritual growth and your passion for pursuing Jesus Christ. I’m happy seeing you grow and pressing on with our Savior.
I don’t know how God wrote our life story. But I know that it’s all for His glory. My heart may aim to have you, but my trust is in the Lord. I allow Him to take my heart and sealed it. That’s why I’ll wait for someone to ask it from Him.
I may have this faith that it is you. But for now, I’m just happy that I meet you. I’m so glad to write this story.
For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from Him. – Psalm 62:5
Someday, by God’s grace, after this quarantine, He may allow us to meet again. Maybe, to start the prologue of another book or to write the epilogue of this story.