Maybe you don’t know how you made my world colorful than before. Maybe you don’t know how you make my smile brighter than before. The moment you stepped into my life, I feel like a new door to a happier tomorrow opened and I entered without having second thoughts. I entered it with you, while holding your hands so tight that I don’t plan on letting go. But maybe I was wrong when all I saw was the happy sides of that world. There are a lot of things we should conquer before we get to that happy ever after. Having you by my side while conquering my fears and insecurities is a whole lot better than facing them all without you.
For the first time in my life, I was sure. I was sure of you. I was sure of us. For the first time in my life I think I’ve done something right. I was willing to do it all for you. I was willing to ditch them all for you. For the first time in my life, I fell this hard. Too hard that I forgot how to stand up when I hit the ground.
Why did you choose to leave, my love? I am sure that we can do this together. I am sure that as long as I am holding your hand and you are holding mine, everything could be easier. You became my cure but now, how can you become another pain that I need to cure? I have a lot of things to say but I know you won’t listen so I’ll just let the wind hear me as I cry and whisper your name. I’ll just let the walls see my tears and the lonely moon hear my sighs.
I never thought I’d hate to listen to love songs and watch love stories once again. I never thought nights can be this long, quiet, and lonely once again. Looking at the stars feels like looking into your eyes. You’re too far. You said you love me, but why is leaving me the choice you picked out of the hundreds and thousands of reasons to stay? Or maybe, were the reasons to stay not enough for you to still choose me?
You don’t have to go. Things may go wrong but you don’t have to go. We can start over again and make things better. We can be the better versions of ourselves without having to grow apart, you know? We can still hold each other’s hands and be there for each other like before. It’s all a matter of choice. Why did you have to choose the hard way? No matter how much I cry, my tears can’t seem to dry.
I want you to know that I’ll wait for you. I’ll wait until you come back and be the whole you. I’ll wait until I become the person you want me to be. I’ll wait until the time is right. I can endure all these things and thoughts when I know that at the end of the day, you’re still worth it. Because you will always be worth it.
