“Hinanap kita. I had been in a continuous search just to find you
Yet I never succeed”
I always end up meeting the wrong people during those times that I thought was the right time for me to finally have you.
And I may have met you but unfortunately, we never coexist in each other’s world simply because it wasn’t the right moment for us yet.
Pero pano nga ba kita matatagpuan if me-myself was searching for you for the wrong reasons.
They said the right person will come at the right time, but I was too impatient to wait. I started searching for you, hoping to finally find you.
I am clueless about your identity but I know my heart knows you better. I still fail to have you but I didn’t stop searching. I want you to know that I had been looking for you thru my past flings, wishing that you can be one of them and things could turn into something else. I had tried looking for you thinking that you could be a friend of a close friend or a relative and we are bound to be connected thru them, but you aren’t. I had tried looking for you thru those dating apps and sites but none of those people I met there was you. And I had tried looking for you thru the places that I had been to yet I still didn’t find you.
All along I thought I was looking for someone to love, for that somebody whom I can have a relationship with.
But I was wrong.
I realized I was looking for you for the wrong reasons.
I was at that point of my life na ‘jowang-jowa na ako’ thats why I am looking for you. I was trying to find you on those people I meet yet I always seem to suddenly have a change of mind every damn time that someone tries to flirt with me, during those times when a friend or relative introduces somebody to me and whenever someone asks me for courtship.
yet at the end of the day, what I really needed was the right person as a companion rather than the right person to build a relationship with.