Coming

A thousand scars and million tears

All lurking and falling for the same name-

The name that both built me and played me like a game.

I came championing my resilience

Now I am tucked in, breaking in silence.

It is quite a height from where I fell

I had fury and melancholy that are so hard to tell.

I was left with questions, with no answers to grasp

I was wounded and burdened as your hand I clasp.

Years and years we shared, both in breaking and mending

Not settling down to a grotesque ending

But you choose to go, and choose her too

Which made me wonder where in those years did I mattered too.

I was there with you, all the longest

But to you my significance is the smallest

My confidence bent and broken in every side

Powdered courage, dreams did collide

All the while I still wonder if forgiveness I could still offer

To an almost, my almost lover.

In between running and waiting for you

I whispered under exhausted breath, a prayer for us two.

That someday we’ll meet our gazes again

And no longer remember our summers flooded with unwanted rain.

But I’ll ran somewhere else now

Or maybe stop, breaking cupid’s arrow and bow

Maybe we’re never meant to be

Somewhere between the lane of loving free.

Though I was left with nothing but countless fears

A thousand scars and million tears

All lurking and falling for the same name-

The name that both built me and played me like a game.

I am coming championing my resilience

No longer will I be tucked in, breaking in silence.

This time I am choosing my name-

And gather all the strength I still have left

To tend my every doubt and shame.

I am coming,

Anew.