It was a simple phone conversation when my heart beat fast. I never believe on love at first sight but with you, it must be love at first hear. Funny it seems but that is how my love story began for you.
An ordinary day. A daily routine. Nothing so special but at the moment I heard you voice, a spark of what they say “kilig” tingled me inside. A thought of realizing “I like this guy” or shall I say “I have loved you before” and this is how destiny woke me up. Destiny that wakes my sleeping heart everyday.
It’s been a year to be exact since I have loved you. It was not secretly loving because from the very start, you already know what I felt inside. You did not question me nor replied me an answer. You did not even push me away instead, you stayed. Not as a lover or a partner, but you decided to stay as a friend. I admit it was painful. Thinking it over and having crying nights. I could not force myself. I could not even force you to love me back.
So this is love. Loving and not expecting to love in return. This is how big my heart is. Willing to love you without expecting love in return. What we have right now is what I am holding on to. Let this be my happiness and let me take each time with you. I even wanted to move on and let go but just how it happens in a second, it takes a long time to stay away.
I know that this friendship is what you can only offer. No more, no less. Even if you won’t say it, I feel it.
I think that maybe love is not for me. I will trust the process even if it takes time. I know someday I will realize my worth and its gonna be game over.