In this one-sided love, I feel the love inside my heart, the genuine emotion for someone, wholeheartedly, unconditionally and passionately. Hoping someday, somehow that kind of feeling will be bounce back. Hoping one day, you will also see what I actually sees on the idea of “us”. Maybe somehow you’ll realised what I felt for you is indeed true love.
I kept telling myself that if I truly love this person, I will make myself right for him. I will be there when he needs me. I will make sure to comfort him on his hardest moments. I will be the one who always understands him when times no one will. I will make sure that he feels happy everyday. I will make myself available whenever he needs my companion. And I will make sure that he will not forget that he loves by someone who’s patiently waiting at his side.
I lowered my standards for you. I let you got into my life with distress. I didn’t want to admit you were wrong for me. I don’t want someone else. I only wanted you.
It is really a dumb thing of me, hoping that you would develop stronger feelings for me after getting more texts from me, after spending time with me, after making you as my top priority. I am so stupid to think that maybe I had a little chance from you.
The feeling hopeless on uncertainty got me into reality. I am tired chasing you, but it doesn’t mean I stopped wanting you. The chasing game tired me out.
And now, as we choose to cut whatever relationship we had. As we decided to forget our bonding, our memories and promises, as we choose to walk away and pretend nothing happened. I’m glad that you are still happy.
Right in a while I’m still in pain, but looking back on what happened between us. I can say that the most painful thing in loving someone is not to be left alone, but forgotten by someone you can’t forget. Not all romances will bounce back. I’ll keep in mind that just because one person doesn’t seem to care for you, doesn’t mean you should forget about everyone else who does.
