Losing you felt like dying For me, it has been more than 20 times of crying Though you, in a span of a digit, has already chosen a darling What you deserve will be given by the Divine Being The One who collects tears in His bottle Noting each pain that is subtle Will bring… Continue reading Golden Treasure Above The Sea (Entry #8)
Tag: Moving On
The Fruit of Becoming
Isaiah 55:11 NLT ”It is the same with my word. I send it out, and it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it.” When God gives a Word, you just have to obey, no questions ask. Even if you do not know where… Continue reading The Fruit of Becoming
I Like You, Maybe?
Thinking about yesterday how you were with me I was wondering if that was how you really treat everybody Or is there something special on how you were with me I don’t really know what to feel Should I be happy, excited or scared I was so certain bout how I feel for you before… Continue reading I Like You, Maybe?
2023’s Favorite Lesson
To my favorite lesson this year, thank you for teaching me how to value and love myself more. Thank you for making me realize that I deserve better and that I shouldn’t let myself settle for less. Thank you for the good memories that made me genuinely happy. But most of all, thank you for… Continue reading 2023’s Favorite Lesson
A LETTER TO MY FUTURE SELF
Hi self, how have you been ? Life has been tough, hasn’t it ? But hey, you still managed to keep moving forward. You know, I just want to say that I am so proud of you. Although you’ve made a lot of bad decisions in life, still you were courageous enough to face the… Continue reading A LETTER TO MY FUTURE SELF
Keeping Me At Arm’s Length
You don’t want me. You don’t want me gone either. You’re sending off mixed signals. You’re more confused than I am. I don’t understand. I wonder what changed. We used to build dreams and a life together. You said you saw your future with me. I do, too. I can see myself taking care of… Continue reading Keeping Me At Arm’s Length
Sa Pagitan ng Pagbitaw at Paglaban
Akala ko okay lang ang lahat. Walang away, walang gulo , walang pagtatalo. Lahat kalmado, pero biglang nagbago. Tinanong kita kung anong meron, Sinabi mo wag akong mag isip ng kung ano. Sabi mo walang problema, sinabi mo na okay lang tayo. Pero isang sinabi mo, nagising ka na hindi mo na ako gusto.… Continue reading Sa Pagitan ng Pagbitaw at Paglaban
Matatanggap pa rin ba kita?
Papano ba tanggapin ulit yung taong mahal na mahal mo pero nung mga panahon na nasaktan ka niya, pinabayaan ka lang niya? Papano kita tatanggapin ulit kahit may nararamdaman pa ako sayo pero masakit lahat ng nangyari dahil madami ng naapektuhan? Papano nalang kung humingi ka ulit ng pangalawang pagkakataon, papano ko masisigurado na hindi… Continue reading Matatanggap pa rin ba kita?
In the mean time
There are so many more things that I wanted to say, and I should’ve said it that night That “last night” of our call, our conversation, and my last glimpse of you I realized I should’ve said how much I love you I should’ve stared at you countless times I should’ve stayed up just to… Continue reading In the mean time
Hi, IHY, ILY, TY, Bye
Hi! You said hi, that’s how we met. You’re full of yourself and cracking jokes here and there. You’re laughing your heart out, you’re almost out of breathe. Your playfulness, randomness, and craziness are frowned upon by the others. But, you are a stranger I have yet to discover. I hated you. I hated your… Continue reading Hi, IHY, ILY, TY, Bye
One day… I will stop
Dear Y, I met you when I wasn’t looking for love. We were both broken… You said you don’t want to risk again and that’s ok. But I know, something doesn’t seems right. You were being nice, you were always there and I promise to always listen to you. We became good friends… With… Continue reading One day… I will stop
I already know, darling.
What a tragedy — the look on my face as I looked my best to stand and assume that I was the one your soul longs. I’ve fought long and hard to pursue your heart and I wondered why it was a cold, hard, and locked up case. There was no way in, no way… Continue reading I already know, darling.
The toxicity of cancel culture
I show care genuinely to model you how to value me because I feel hardly unnoticed. Moment by moment I provide you assurance since I know the feeling of insignificance. Yet, you see it on the other way. You thought I am playing around and you’re one of it. If you only knew I seek… Continue reading The toxicity of cancel culture
Same as… “It Was Over Before It Even Started”
In pursuit of a woman, my heart took flight, As she embodied my interest, shining bright. Thinking it was a yes from God’s divine sight, I admired her acceptance, her care, day and night. To know her better, her loved ones I’d explore, Excitement filled me as I opened each door. But after a while,… Continue reading Same as… “It Was Over Before It Even Started”
Embrace the Scars
I believed I had found someone special and my heart was filled with hope and admiration. However, as time passed, we encountered obstacles and our communication became weaker. It became clear that our paths were heading in different directions, and I had to let go. Through this experience, I learned the importance of patience and… Continue reading Embrace the Scars
7 years
Di ko akalaing ganito ako ka-Tanga,
Nag-tanim ako ng di kaylanman magbubunga.
Goodbyes Without Saying Goodbye
” I left because I got tired out of your inconsistency and your mixed signals. ”
I am afraid, but I will brave my heart to continue.
Dear frightened heart,I know you wanted to continue loving but you are afraid to be hurt. I know you’re ready, but the fear is still there. Be brave to fall in love with beautiful places, with beautiful people, and with moments. Fall in love with the way your heart races whenever you received a message… Continue reading I am afraid, but I will brave my heart to continue.
Unshackled
One of the biggest irony that we encountered a lot is the phrase” the simplest thing to say is the hardest thing to do” and that really encapsulates the whole dilemma we always encounter “MOVING FORWARD and LETTING GO OF THE PAST”. It’s hard to fathom and to say that even the strongest person we… Continue reading Unshackled
I Shall No Longer…
I am well aware that both of us now reside in an inevitable reality. We have a variety of aspirations that we want to accomplish to become a better version of ourselves, such as achieving success, improving our quality of life, and working toward our goals for the future. The thought of you always fills… Continue reading I Shall No Longer…
I love you, but all we had was a game.
I love you.How deep? I do not know.For how long? I can no longer remember.How many times did I say it to myself? I’ve already lost count.For what reason? Too many to mention I love you.To the extent that I gave my allTo the time that I change myself for youTo the point that I’m no… Continue reading I love you, but all we had was a game.
Talo na talaga ako.
Minsan iniisip ko kung nagkaron ka ba talaga ng feelings para sakin? Anong ibig sabihin ng “good morning” at “good night” mo?Ano nga ba ang ibig sabihin ng pag uupdate mo sa akin?Naging comfortable ka lang ba talaga ikwento sa akin yung buong araw mo? Ano nga ba ang ibig sabihin ng pag dedemand mo… Continue reading Talo na talaga ako.
Simula, Gitna at Katapusan
Simula, Gitna at Katapusan Simula nang aking Umaga Ikaw Ang laman ng isipan. Dumapit man Ang magHapon Hindi ka nawaglit sa kamalayan. Bubungad man sa kawalan Ikaw lang Ang syang tinatanawan. Taya ko ngang pagsinta mukhang wala Ng katapusan. Pagkat sa Araw- Araw na nagdadaan sigurado Akong Ikaw lang. Ngunit dumating Tayo sa Gitna… Continue reading Simula, Gitna at Katapusan
Sometimes I wonder why I ended up not being chosen by someone I love.
Sometimes I wonder why I ended up not being chosen by someone I love. Yung tipong hindi naman ikaw yung unang nagka-gusto, siya naman nagparamdam sa’yo pero bakit ako yung na-fall ng todo at iniwan? I always try my best to protect my heart pero siya naman yung nagpupumilit na hulihin yung mga ngiti ko,… Continue reading Sometimes I wonder why I ended up not being chosen by someone I love.
11 Lessons Learned in Moving On
Hey there, I know it’s tough to go through a breakup (or sudden ghosting dahil walang kayo), but I want you to know that you’re strong enough to handle it. And ito yung mga advice ko sayo: 1. Taking responsibility for your actions and forgiving yourself is a powerful step towards healing and personal growth.… Continue reading 11 Lessons Learned in Moving On
Sana tumigil na ang puso kong mahalin ka.
Mahal kita sa best version mo.Mahal parin kita kahit sa lowest points mo.Minamahal kita kahit sa panahong hindi ka totoo sakin.Patuloy kitang minamahal kahit lagi mo naman akong sinasaktan.At sa puntong pinaramdam mo sa akin na hindi ako karapat dapat mahalin, mahal parin kita. Marahil nga masasabi na ako’y isa nang hibang dahil ang puso’y… Continue reading Sana tumigil na ang puso kong mahalin ka.
She’s Beating Again
It was the first week of the month of love when I saw you. I was terrified. I felt numb. Frozen like snow. I was blankly staring at you. I don’t know why. I don’t know how. She was just beating, again. Like a child who is very excited to get a present. But sometimes,… Continue reading She’s Beating Again
I apologize as you matter to me a lot.
I wish the pain had also ended as I closed my chapter 2022. Every step I take as Chapter 2023 begins appears to be difficult. I can say that I am no longer feeling the same pain as I did on the day you decided to leave. I don’t know where this journey is taking… Continue reading I apologize as you matter to me a lot.
Sa Kabila ng Bakit
Hinanap, natagpuan.Nagkakilala, nagkapalagayan.Masaya sa una. Sa una lang pala.Bakit unti-unting naglaho ang nakasanayan na?Bakit palagi na lang nauudlot ang nasimulan na?Bakit pinili nilang mawala ngunit biglang bumabalik?Bakit sa huli na nila napagtanto kung kailan may nasaktan na?Bakit hindi maipagpatuloy ang nasimulan?Bakit naging duwag ang sa una’y matapang? Hindi na kita hahanapin pang muli.Sapagkat ang hinahanap… Continue reading Sa Kabila ng Bakit
I Choose the Love More than What is Temporary
I’ve been hurt so many times for the love I thought it was. I cried so much for the love I thought will last forever. I dreamed for future being in love with same person in mind. I tried to find love but it lost me. It’s so exciting to be in love however we… Continue reading I Choose the Love More than What is Temporary