So.. I randomly ended up in your Facebook profile again. I didn’t mean to, to be honest. Besides, you haven’t posted anything for the past months and I’m pretty sure you don’t have plans of doing so in the future. But today, as I accidentally (okay.. sort of) run through your timeline, I saw a picture posted 3 days ago wherein you were tagged. Aside from the rare exposure of your face in your profile and the way you charmingly carry your guitar on your back, what caught my attention (and brought back my feels) is the fact that you are on a mission trip again.
*sigh*
I’m sure you knew that I liked you. But are you also aware that I’ve been liking you for years and I still admire you until now? I hope you aren’t. 🙂
When God changed my perception about romance and men, when He placed His standards for His best for me, whilst most of my crushes were rubbed out, my admiration for you grew even stronger. I don’t know how my crush started back before but I definitely know the reasons why I like you now.
You can be flattered, but no pressure. You don’t have to feel guilty, sorry, or even be conscious of the fact that I like you. Don’t get me wrong, I really admire and respect you, but I am also guarding my heart. I have set emotional boundaries for myself and I don’t have plans of pursuing you nor anyone because I will only pursue Jesus and the dreams He has planted in my heart.
Though I’m not expecting anything in return from you, I just want you to know that I am grateful. You may not know it, but God has been using your life to remind me of His promises. Your love for the Lord, your hunger for His Words, your zealousness for the ministry and the Gospel, your courage to stand in your faith – God has been using them to rebuke and remind me of my calling as well.
Your existence reminds me that God’s best for me is worth the wait. That there are still men who don’t only include Jesus in there lives, but who really live for Christ. That there are still bold and courageous warriors who are willing to pursue a woman in a God honoring way.
You don’t know how many times I have been tempted to compromise my standards for my emotions but I thank God for using your life to remind me not to settle for less than the kind of man I am praying for. (my future husband has to thank you for this)
Without romance related hopes or motives, I sincerely pray the best for you. May you continue to pursue and enjoy Jesus in your life. As you run the race with endurance and faith, may His Light in you relentlessly shine. 🔏