There was a time in my life that I was like Adam who was fallen into a deep sleep. Focusing on serving God alone and having no interest in dating and relationship. I was not praying for a specific woman to pursue. I was just focusing on myself and discovering things in me. I was enjoying myself alone and embracing solitude. This was the time God wanted me to enjoy His presence alone and to find His completeness in my singleness. So I traveled, as in a lot. I went to my favorite countries with friends and sometimes even doing it alone as a solo traveler.
Early this year 2023, our Senior Pastor mentioned my name in our church during preaching. He prophesied to me declaring blessings and fruitfulness and giving instruction specifically for me. After that prophecy, the very first thing that came to my mind was choosing my suitable partner. I was thinking that it is very crucial to marry the right person because either she will help me to build a family that God wants for me, or she will sabotage the future God has for me.
So I began praying to God. My prayer is for God to give the desires of my heart. As I do not have desire to pursue before, God now gave me desire to pursue now.
In Psalm 37:4 (NIV) it says, “Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.”
It was God who gave me understanding what I should desire in my life. God put this desire in my heart to marry and to have a family that loves and serves Him because it is His will for me. God made me realised that it is not good for me to journey this life alone and He will give me a partner suitable for me.
In Ecclesiastes 3:6 (NLT) it says, “A time to search and a time to quit searching. A time to keep and a time to throw away.”
Now, the search is on. I belong to a church community wherein there are a lot of women that is a good potential. They are serving in the church, leading and helping people to know Christ, family-oriented, and working professionals. The option that I have is not between who is the right or the wrong woman for me, because they are all right as we are all co-workers in Christ, but to choose the best among them.
In the next chapter, I will share the things that I wanted for my suitable partner that is aligned to the will of God for my life. It is wanting what God wants for my life 😊
