We started as friends, really good friends until we became lovers.
During the darkest moments of your life, I stay by your side.
During the times that you feel hopeless, I constantly told you “Laban lang, kaya mo yan!”
During the times that you are confused about everything in your life, still, I stay.
I stay because I believe you.
I stay because I trust you.
I stay because I know that after every storm, there’s calm.
I stay because I know that after every rain there’s a rainbow.
I stay because I love you, my love.
And I wasn’t wrong.
Your darkness turn into light.
Your hopelessness turn into hopefulness.
Your confusion turn into clarity.
And still my love, I stay.
I always choose to stay by your side.
And I know it’s worth it.
Until…
The darkness enters my life.
I open up to you.
Unfortunately,
Your encouragement becomes discouragement.
Your “Nandito lang ako” goes to “Pasensya ka na, stress din sa work”.
Your “I miss you” disappeared.
And your “I love you” disappeared, as well.
You left me alone, during the time I needed you the most.
I thought you’ll do the same for me.
I thought you’ll always choose to stay.
Unfortunately, it’s not.
It’s already half a year since we broke up,
And for that span of time, there are times that I think you’re selfish.
There are times that I miss you.
There are times that I’m mad at you.
And there are times that I still love you.
Actually, I still love you and I’m sure of that.
For the past 6 months, I waited for you to realize your mistake.
For the past 6 months, I hoped that you’ll come back.
For the past 6 months, I still longed for you.
For the past 6 months, I still can’t move on, my love.
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It’s half a year na, but still ang bigat pa rin sa pakiramdam. So I decided to reach out to you. Not because I wanted to fix our relationship but because I just want closure, a peace of mind. I just wanted to end our chapter in a good way.
Before reaching out to you. I already set my expectation na okay lang kung papayag ka, okay lang kung hindi. Unfortunately, hindi ka pumayag na mag meet tayo to talk about things and you told me na maging masaya na lang tayo. And I think your reply is enough closure for me.
Thank you for everything! This is too much pain but I know at the right time, this will heal.
