Since the day I’ve learned about my feelings for you, I started doing things I thought you’d appreciate. All of those went unnoticed.
I still tried, I can’t lose what I don’t have, so why not try, right? I’m mistaken, I can’t lose you, but I lost myself.
After several failed attempts, I stopped showing up for you. I started living for myself, I am truly happy because of that. I met amazing people that made me realised my worth. They made me realise how they can love and accept me for who I am, not for what I can do and not for what I can give.
Now, you’re here again, I know that it’s not because of me, but my young heart is beating loudly again. It’s aching every moment it went unnoticed. It’s sad, because it’s hoping again.
I already accepted that you’re not meant for me. But how can I say that to my young heart?
How can I say that the past years have been amazing without you and I should just go back to that circle and never let our paths cross ever again, when my young heart’s so lively by just the thought of you and what it might have been, if I just try again.
It’s hard, but it’s not impossible. I already did it once and I’m doing it again. I’m choosing myself, because I own my heart before it became yours.
