Persistency is the key. But I don’t think it would sti work out.
I just read your messages earlier. Well, It has been 5 long years. I know you’ve been trying to reach me out for that 5 years in every communication channel you can. Yes, I read your chats, your invitation to meet up, emails, IG messages and comments, Messenger, Skype calls and messages, friend requests, and if YM is still a thing, for sure you have reach out to me on there too. Yes, I saw them all. I just think I do not need to explain anything, but with that persistency makes me believe you want to know if you have ever crossed my mind lately.
I know you were wondering about the friendship we had lost. We used to be inseparable until one fell and the other cannot reciprocate until we came to a point that we were alreasy hurting each other. Now, persistently asking year after year, if no forgiveness can be given. So to answer that question, I want to let you know that I am not mad anymore and I have already forgiven you. Sincerely. In fact I already prayed for you years ago that may you be a better person than who you were when I knew you. Better husband to your wife, father to your kids and friend to the people who actually cared and cares for you. Believe me, I did pray for that. And that’s when I realized I am already ok.
Well, thanks for at least trying. But the thing is, things are already different from what it used to be. We can never be friends not because I am still mad but because I don’t think we can still be. I don’t think it will be healthy for both of us anymore. And I don’t want to keep myself away from the peace I am having now. I know we used to be a big part of each other’s lives but 5 years is long enough that we have outgrown each other and most probably we do not know each other anymore. You see, people change. Yes I changed a lot and I believe you did too. And for those changes, we can never get back the friendship that we lost. Because it will never be the same. Plus, it was already decided the day we said our goodbyes and accepted the fact that people come and go too. So I guess that chapter with you was that’s just it.
So again, just to remind you in case this still bothers you as I am not sure if that is the reason why you try your best to talk to me, I have forgiven you and I pray that you have forgiven me if I caused you pain too. And probably you need to forgive yourself too?
I hope you find all the answers to all those questions you’ve been longing to ask. And… this will be the last time I will respond back which also means I hope this will be your last message for me too.
Thank you, wish nothing but the best and God Bless you.
