I have been always afraid of being with someone who can shut-down my egoistic personality, terrified to be in a relationship with someone who will keep me up at night to listen to a potential partner’s breakdown and battle cry. I was selfish, and somehow afraid of commitment. I love to commit; but not in a relationship, rather to commit in leadership and youth-empowerment, that has always been my desire: to inspire people, not until I met the person that made me realize that life is not a merry-go-round.
Funny how time can be surreal, mind-set can be driven away not by how we think, but by how we feel. I cannot deny the fact that I love to have my personal time, away from my friends and family. I can study in a coffee shop for hours without having someone to talk to, but I can’t eat alone in a fast-food chain. I feel incomplete, I guess? The stares of the people, the deafening silence and the lonely atmosphere.
All of these changed way back June 4, 2018 when I met the person that gave me hundreds of reasons to smile. Jollibee became our avenue for first-dates, we shared laughs, and might as well cries. After stressful periods of classes, I automatically drive around the city to get to Jollibee with my partner, it’s such a breather of how scared I am to eat all alone for the past years, and now I have someone whom I can comfortably be with.
Now, it’s all on me, of how I ran to your house at midnight because of your calls, I can’t play a guitar but the songs I sang whenever you can’t sleep, I knew it helped. Because of having someone like you, I taught myself how to be a Man with honor and pride. It made me become a fighter, somehow. You don’t even have to say a single word when you’re not okay, because I can feel you. I committed such failures in life but you were there making me realize that it’s not that even bad.
These tough times made me realize how important memories are, and how we should cherish each and every hour, for we do not know the possibilities that would come. For the most part, Jollibee is such a blessing, of how I was able to conquer my defeats, and victories with my partner. Jollibee became an inanimate proof for the love we had augmented.
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