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An open letter to the guy who always have a special place in my heart

An open letter to the guy who always have a special place in my heart
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An open letter to the guy who always have a special place in my heart

We were high school students when I first saw you again. How could I forget your face, you were my childhood crush. Everything happened in slow motioned as you walked by; the surroundings were blurry but my feelings for you remains the same,
… I miss you.
Hours, days and years passed by;
We became friends. I became part of your family. It feels like I’m one step closer to you. I try to hide my “kilig” whenever you’re near. Every emotions that a girl could possibly feel, I felt. I can’t even pretend that you meant nothing to me. A glance from you is worth more than the attention from anyone else,
… I need you.
I easily get jealous whenever you give others the attention which I crave. People say I can only drown in the color blue, but I was drowning with the way you look at me and the dimples in your cheeks. I started to look at the floor instead of looking at you every time you pass by. I’m trying to forget you but I’m also waiting for you. No matter how many boys I met, I still think about you and how much I wanted you to be mine. Out of all the people in the world, I will always pick you,
… I want you.
For the past few years it’s always been you.
I can’t think of one thing about you that I’m not in love with. I adore you for being the protective kuya to your three sisters. You’re my favorite hello, the happy memories in my diary. The first time you kissed my cheek, I couldn’t utter a word. Every little thing you do to me is already a big thing, but for you it’s just a friendly gesture. If only you knew how much those little things mattered to me,
… I like you.
Today, I’m falling in love with myself. I left behind the anxieties, let go of what if’s and embracing the brighter side. And as for you; maybe you’re still courting her, I wish you the best of luck. But never forget that there’s a corner in my heart that is yours. Whether I fall in love once or a thousand times over to other man or never again, there will always be a small quiet place in my heart that only belongs to you. I don’t know what the future holds for us. All I know is I’m willing to toss my last coin in the fountain, wait for the shooting star at night, cross my fingers and wish that it will be your hand I’m holding in the future because,
… I love you.