Surely, it feels liberating to focus on yourself, to rely solely on your own. It is absolutely everyone’s goal this days. #Selflove as what most people say. Pero paano pag napagod ka nang maging andyan para sa sarili mo? What if you badly needed a break? What if you’re tired to be your own hero? To whom do seek help to? It may sound clingy but it isn’t far from truth anyways. Lahat naman tayo needed someone or something to depend to. Madalas, our own “me time” has its expiry date. Aminin mo man or hindi, minsan nakakapagod din ng ikaw lang di ba? We tend to seek attention and comfort, cause that is what our instincts tells us so.
Am I still making sense? Sana gets mo pa din ako. Actually, I keep asking this questions dahil tulad mo ganito din ako- I want to have lots of self-love but most of the time, I get tired. Why? Maybe because I’ve been on my own for so long and yet I’m not sure if this is happy. Di ako kuntento? Maybe? Sa tagal kong ako lang parang joke naman kung sasabihin kong di ako sumubok hanapin siya di ba? It’s just that, wala eh. It’s either not the right time, not the right person or simply because di pa talaga siya yun. And so, here’s me enduring this series of KAYA MO YAN!
Sa tagal kong representative ng third wheel ng mga mag jowa sa barkada, guidance counselor ng mga kaibigan na dependable sa mga payo kong di ko alam san nahugot, wouldn’t it be nice if you’ll finally meet me and serve your purpose? I know, I know this might sound immature and needy. And if this isn’t really your time to shine, edi don’t. I’m just speaking on behalf of my 2021 self-who’s still struggling in the waiting process. I should be sleeping pero here’s me scribbling all this thoughts na para bang may makakarinig talaga sa ingay ng utak ko. If this is one way of telling you how am I doing this days, eto na yun. I’m between distracted and hopeful in this times of KAYA MO YAN. I am enduring this waiting kasi aasa akong dadating ka. Aasa with faith, Isaiah 60:22 “when the time is right, I’ll make it happen”.
Siguro it’ll be my piece of heaven hearing you say AKO BAHALA.
