Dear Love,
I’m sorry for going cold after starting out aggressively. I know I said things. I made promises and gave you expectations. I’m sorry for leaving you hanging. I honestly thought I’ve totally figured you out. I really thought it was that easy. I learned I was wrong.
Well, the truth is ‘leaving’ is not the right word. It’s more like a ‘time off’. I know this one is another promise, but trust me, I’ll be back. I’m too proud of a man not to honor my words.
There is nothing wrong with you. It’s me. Yeah, I know it’s cliché but it’s true. Like I’ve always said, you are great. I think so highly of you. You are not perfect, like what you’ve told me. You are more ‘Ideal’ than perfect. You are the right one for me. You are the best one for me. And the best only deserves the best. Sadly, as competitive as I am, I feel like I’m not at my best, atleast not just yet. But, I’m working on it.
In this ‘time off’, I’ll try to find myself. I’ll get to know myself. I’ll work on myself. I’ll confront myself to be the best version of myself. I’ll do what I love. I’ll find my purpose. I’ll build on my career. I’ll be stable. I’ll have a house. I’ll have a car. It won’t be the best, but yeah, God knows I’ll try to have the best that I can. I’ll perfect the ‘I’ before it becomes ‘Us’.
I hope you can wait. I’m coming…As fast as I can. Meet you at the end of the aisle.
On it,
Jhun