I wish you can still understand the ways of life. Sometimes, there are days that seem to make it hard to breathe and you cannot fathom the feelings of these emotions that are circling around your bones. There are times that you are blindly confined inside the darkness of your own confusion and reveries and no matter how you try to escape your own self, it drags you from within.
I wish that you can still believe that after all the hardships and pain, there is truly a brighter day that awaits in the end. A brighter day that will let you feel you have won the battle of life and the scars that you are wearing are the proof of bravery and strength that you carried through all this time.
I wish that you can still say that good things happen to those who patiently wait. I don’t know how long you have been waiting, how patiently you are standing still in the chaos of this mess and you can feel that you’re on the brink of giving up and letting it all go.
I wish that you can escape from the nothingness of this emotion. I wish that you can definitely tell what you are really feeling. It is as if you are lost in your own emotions and you’re drowned in your own thoughts and words. It feels like so much but ironically, it feels nothing and empty.
I wish that you can go through this with time. I wish that you can keep track with its seconds, minutes and hours. Oftentimes, it seems like you are always left behind and time itself has left you and you are lost in your moment, in your own sanity.
I wish that you can keep out blinding yourself from the reality. I wish that you can learn that things will never work out the way you always want them to; that you can only do so much and that sometimes, there are things that are better left unsaid and unspoken.
And you don’t know which one is better, the one which you can keep yourself from or the one you need to let go from believing either.
