Loving You in Silence

To my favorite person,

I want you to be happy. Eventhough all you have left with me are memories, pictures and best days. I am grateful that I was able to have someone like you in my life.

It’s been 4 years since we had met. We’ve been good friends, though It was really difficult on my part because there is this “special love” I really feel for you. I really love you and care for you a lot. Kahit alam kong hindi pwede minamahal pa rin kita. I never regret and never stopped doing the things that make you happy. Dahil gusto ko lang na makita kitang masaya, dun palang gumagaan na sa pakiramdam ko. Di ako napagod na mahalin ka , Each day, each moment my love for you grows.

I tried so hard to be happy, to accept the fact that we can’t be together, the fact that we’re just good friends, I tried so hard to keep these feeling bottled for many years pero di ko magawa. Kasi nandito yung pagmamahal na sobrang damang-dama ko na di nakakapagod. So, here I am writing this open letter for you. Ibinuhos ko na lahat dito. Kasi I want to express my genuine love for you

Remember, we met four years ago, di ko makalimutan yung picture mo sa FB na nag caught ng attention ko. I was so glad that time ‘coz you allowed me na magkita tayo. At dun nagsimula ang magandang friendship. Dun na nagsimula ung “spark”, yung excitement ko na makita kita lagi. We became spontaneous, sobrang daming memories na magkasama tayo.

You are my source of inspiration, ang laki ng effect mo sa buhay ko. I became a better person, alam kong di ka masyadong aware dito.
In a long period of time, I pictured everything with you. Imagined you, lagi ko nga sinasabi sayo , gusto kong maging parte ng buhay mo ’till we grow old. But I think somethings are not just meant to be right. Pero di dun nag stop yung love ko. Wala akong ibang hiniling nagmahal lang ako. Pag malungkot ka, agad agad akong nagmemessage sayo, checkin’ na okay ka lang.

I love you so much and knew you were worth it. Everytime we’re together and you’re with someone else di ko mapigilan na nagseselos ako. Gusto kitang kausapin sa mga panahong ramdam kong may problema ka pero I could not control what you’re doing. Kaya nanatili na lang akong tahimik. Ramdam ko talaga na mas may better na kaysa sa akin. Lam mo ba yon? Tipong nabalewala na ko lahat-lahat. Takot ako mawala ka. I feel like I am useless. I want to stay, but staying sometimes is tiring. You probably wouldn’t care but i just want to let you know these things.

No, I never regret everything I did for you
No, I never get tired loving you.
Yes, you changed my life.
Yes, I became a better person since the day I met you. Never ako napagod, nagsawa.

Thank you for making me feel beyond happy.
Thank you for teaching me how to love unconditionally.

Para kang babae nakawala sa libro / bida sa nobela. Yung sa simula pa lang ay nasasabik nako sa bawat eksena ng buhay mo. Pero tulad ng pagbabasa ng mga libro sa dulo ay kailangan ko ng tapusin. Kailangan na kitang isara. You are my shortest yet my happiest story to tell.

Para kang babae sa panaginip lamang nag-eexist. Pero tulad ng panaginip sa kalagitnaan man nito o sa dulo ay kailangang gumising. You are my shortest yet my exciting dream to remember. I will move on kahit walang tayo and accept the fact that you and I cannot be together. Thank you for everything.

I promise, whenever you need me, just don’t hesitate to call. I am just here as always. I want to fulfill my promises that I’ll stay by yourside whenever you’re sad. I am one text away, just open up and I will listen.

Thank you for accepting me as a family. I will keep you forever.

Someday, even hearing your name won’t be as painful as it does right now.

Someday, when I see you again di na ako magseselos , no special love anymore.

I am sorry for loving you like this. For loving you in silence. Please forgive me. .

You’ll always be my “inspiration”.

Love,
Mick🙃