Is there a right time for you to say and show how much you love someone? When will you say that this person matters to you? Does showing gratitude and love require a right and perfect moment?
We realized things when it was too late. We see the value of someone when he is no longer part of our life – it’s either he left you or he left this lifetime. How ironic it is for us to see the existence of someone when it no longer exists. We mourn and grieve but that’s it, we can no longer bring back that certain person in our lives.
I am the princess of the family, my siblings annoyed and bullied me for that. I was spoiled enough that I didn’t wash the dishes when I was in my childhood days. It is because every time they ask me to do something, my father will do it for me. He always got my back. Whenever I wanted something for my dolls, he was there – making a table with a drawer for my dolls. He was there when my nose bled a lot due to an accident. He was there when my cousins bullied me. He was there when I learned to walk and when I said my first word. He was there when I cried and he was there when I laughed because of my silliness. He let me join him for a walk and I trust him enough that I will always come with him wherever he will go. He loves me and all of us in his own way, there was a time where he asked me if I love him but instead of saying how much he matters I just said “tinatanong pa po ba iyan?” I admit being vocal is not my thing – it is my greatest regret. Why did I not say that I love him? Why did I not show him how important and valued he is? So many what ifs and questions that will remain unanswered.
We do realize and learn when it is too late for us to correct our mistakes. If your parents are still with you, please show them how they mean to your world. By simply saying I love yous and saying how grateful you are to have them as their child is a lot for them. Treasure them every second, hour, day, months and years. Love them when they are still there. Because he was there – was and will never be is. He won’t be here when I’ll reach our dreams, and forever I’ll hold on to his words that he just went somewhere and he is there in the plane that will land right in front of me. I won’t say goodbye because I know I will stay in that lifetime where he was there.