This is something I didn’t exactly want to happen. I always put you at first. I’ve loved you for these long and I never failed to show you how grateful I felt about it. We started like each other’s center of our world. But as time goes by, changes begin to happen. We are not like how we used to before. How you used to be on my side no matter what. I didn’t asked nor begged for the same old you to come back but please, please never make me feel like I’m just a backup plan. An option. A past time.
I’ll never get tired of loving you but I get tired of how I am to you. I’ve been waiting for the day that you’ll never see me as an option and an ease to your urges. Because we didn’t start like what we are now. I tend to swallow all the foolishness I have just to keep my love for you. Don’t let me get tired of waiting for something that you will never give a damn with. I just started to question my role to your life after so many years that I kept my eyes being blind to what I am really to you. I’m not in rush to demand for a future that you never see with me. Because I don’t want you to regret it and blame me for something that I’ve been waiting to happen. Cause I am sure for the fact that you only see me as your temporary happiness.
I drown in the tsunami of this silence pain I had. It’s all consuming me. Consuming me every seconds that you never see my worth anymore. Save me from being tired of waiting and hoping that someday, in such time you will still see me like how I deserved to be loved and love you like how I did.
Not until it’s too late.
