Every single detail of you make me smile
I don’t know if I’m in love or I’m just infatuated
all I know is I’m happy because you exist
I’m blessed because we met
It’s funny how I support you joke even if it is corny
It’s funny when I react every post in your social media even if it’s not for me
It’s funny that I did everything just to make you happy
and this is the funniest of all
that I asked you to God even if I’m not sure that we’re mean to be
Maybe right now, you have someone that you admired
and I hate the fact that
I envy the girl who captured your attention
I envy the girl that can make you happy without an effort
I envy the girl you told to your friends
I envy the girl for saving her photo in your gallery
I envy the girl you’re always supporting everything she do
and I envy the girl whom your heart prays for
You never knew how it hurts me
but I can’t blame you
coz it’s your life
It’s your decision
It’s your feelings
I can’t dictate you, and who am I to do that?
I’m just your sister in Christ, a friend, and an admirer
I can’t blame you for the times I cried
I can’t blame you that I overthink
I can’t blame that I feel confused
I can’t blame you that my heart is in pain
I can’t blame you that I treat you as my everything
It will never be your fault
It was all mine
My fault for allowing myself fall for you even more
My fault for allowing myself to get hurt
My fault for expecting that one day, you and I will be together
My fault for putting a meaning to something that really means nothing
Maybe one day I’ll stop supporting you
Maybe one day I’ll stop pushing you to do this and that
Maybe one day I’ll stop caring for you
Maybe one day I’ll stop loving you
Maybe one day I’ll stop praying for you
because one day, someone out there will do everything I did, for you
Yes it will hurt me, but I need to accept not just the reality but my destiny
I jus want to thank you for every moment that we shared
and for everything you did for me
because of that, it is very clear
that you act not as man who love me
but a brother that has a concern to his sister
One day I’ll accept the fact
that we’re really meant to know each other
but not meant to be together
