Not Now
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Not Now

It’s been over 5 years since we bid farewell.

I have forgotten how it felt with you around.

I have forgotten how happy I was when I was with you.

Last night, you appreared in my dream. Randomly. Very randomly.

I wasn’t thinking about you nor did I even talk to someone about you.

It was oddly random.

I jolted up from my bed and I noticed the streak of tears that went down my cheeks.

Why was I that affected? I couldn’t even remember what I dreamt.

I just knew and felt you in that haze.

It was such an odd feeling.

The wounds have healed but the scars remained.

Not now when I have slowly built myself up again.

Not now when I have already moved on from my memories of you.

Not now when I have learned to open up myself to love again.

Not now.