I’m afraid if I’ll keep on going it’s not only me who’ll get drown. You were almost so ideal that no matter how I keep on reminding myself, nothing works. It excites me when you’re listening to my interests like I’m having my own stage to talk about me. No one bothers but just listens. I’ve always been saying not to think about this little feelings everytime it pops into my head. But when your song comes on I can’t help it. I feel happiness and pain at the same time by just listening to it. I’ve been reminding myself not to be someone I hated but I am turning to be like her. Knowing I might hurt another woman. Knowing slowly, she’s losing you.
She’s yours. All yours and I don’t want you to waste that just for an unworthy person like me. I can’t promise you anything so don’t risk. I can’t even identify what do i really want. Was it you or just the feeling you are giving me? It broke my heart. Really. Telling you to give space between us. That I need to be distant. It hurts how you agreed with the thought of “better left unsaid” when all I was thankful of is you letting me know how you felt. It hurts when it feels like you’re singing for me and listening how painful you’ve felt after with what I have done. You are the escape I want to run to when I’m feeling down yet I can’t for you are somebody else’s home. No don’t ask me whether you give her up or not for anytime by now I can become greedy not only to her but to the both of you.
