I’d like to thank time. Through you, I knew what waiting should be like; I knew what living and cherishing the moment means. Thank you for giving hours, minutes, and seconds for me to understand that some things are not yet too late on trying and not too late doing. Thank you for telling me that there are still possibilities to make things right, that there are still a break through coming along the way, that there are always a brand new morning to start fresh and new. Thank you for helping me accept the fact that I cannot bring back what has been lost no matter how I tried to do it.
I’d like to thank mistakes and faults. Through you I learned that I am still learning more about life and the messiness of living are all natural, it is being a human. I learned that I am still continuously being refined to my utmost better version, that the flaws and imperfections help me gain a lot to go through the adventures of existence. Thank you for reminding me the importance of being careful and cautious in everything I do, that I need to think things over before saying and doing it and that I cannot take back what I have done so it is important to make things right at the first time.
I’d like to thank chances and opportunities. Even if most often, I am afraid to step my feet a bit forward, you reminded me that it’s okay to stand on the same spot where I left, but this second time around, a little wiser.
I’d like to thank heartbreaks. The shattered pieces and the broken ones taught me that even through breaking; I am still capable of loving. Thank you for letting me know the beauty of you. Thank you for letting my heart break so I’ll know how to let go of the hands that’s not meant for me. Thank you for letting me grow and understand that you are not bound to be a regret, but a wonderful lesson instead.
I’d like to thank truth. Even though I am always afraid of you, I’d like to thank you for always setting me free. Thank you for freeing me in the darkness of my doubts and confusion. Thank you for releasing me in the chains of lies, deceit and false pretenses. Thank you for letting me know the reality in all the uncertainties of life and what lies beneath it.
I’d like to thank healing. Though I wish it could be done overnight, but thank you for binding and putting me up once more to continue striving. It may take weeks, months or even years, thank you. Thank you for saving me and holding up my hands when I get wounded from false promises, expectations and self beliefs. The process may be not that easy, but thank you for always fixing me may it not be the way I want it to be.
I’d like to thank all the blankets who kept me warm when the coldness of the universe enfolds me. I want to thank you for being the comfort that touches my skin in middle of chaos when my mind seems like about to explode and blow off. I’d like to thank you for letting me feel my own warmth and hearing the sound of my own breath that makes me realize the beauty of being.
I’d like to thank all the beautiful hearts that believed in me. Thank you for trusting my strengths and potentials. Thank you for you are the hands that never get tired of holding me back from the misrouted paths of my choices and poor decision makings. Thank you for you are the voice that never gets worn-out of calling me in the middle of the night to let me know that I am not alone, that you understand where I am coming from, that you are here when my chest feels like bursting from all the weight of my emotions. You are truly a treasure for you have a heart of gold.
I’d like to thank love. With all the forms of love I have encountered, may it be unrequited, may it be reciprocated, may it be ignored, may it be putted aside. We may not get the right timing, we may not get the perfect moment for now, I’d like to thank you, still, for existing. Thank you for letting me know that you are still here and that I’ll be able to have you someday, that one day you’ll face me and I’ll be able to embrace you finally with so much reality.
