I’m sorry, baby.
I’m sorry I said that I didn’t want to have you. It’s not really that I don’t want you, it’s just that I can’t have you.. at least, not yet.
I just don’t know how I could protect you.
I still don’t know how to take care of you.
I still don’t know if I’m strong enough to fight for you.
I don’t want to end up failing you.
I don’t want you to hate me too.
Worst, I don’t want to end up being the person who hurts you the most.
I don’t want to have you yet, because I don’t think I deserve you.
You deserve someone who could make you happy.
You deserve someone who could take care of you and keep you safe.
You deserve someone strong enough to fight for you.
You deserve someone who would constantly choose you over anything in the world.
Until then, I can’t have you, baby. I would have to earn the right to deserve you.
When that time comes, maybe, just maybe, the heavens will allow me to have you.
