I met a guy who gave me hope.
I’m stuck in a toxic relationship. I am stuck because I’m weak. I don’t know how to do break up even though it hurts me a lot.
I was in a situation, that when silence came, tears fell. My heart hurts, and I lose my strength. I want to get out. I know what to do, but I can’t. I can’t maybe because I still love him. I’m still hoping and praying for his change.
I keep hanging out with him and his friends, but I end up crying. I keep on telling him that I’m hurting already. He keeps on saying his promises, but he continues breaking it.
If you ask me if I loved him? Yes. I did. But if someone hurts you a lot of times and with the same reason, it fades. I keep holding on because I believe that he will change.
I endure the pain, crying seems a normal thing, embracing the aches, until the time came that I start praying to God to help me.
I’m not strong like other girls, who can do break up if they got hurt. I salute them. I was in a situation that every time I heard a relationship that ends, I said in myself, congrats. You’re so strong.
In my weakness, God is my strength. He comforts me and teaches me lessons. To be a fighter and to stand in my conviction.
I became strong to do the right things and to trust Him. He already gave me a sign to do break up, but I still can’t. Honestly, if you ask me again if I love him? No. I don’t.
It fades, it has gone, I’m afraid, I’m lost, and I want to get out.
I cried I’m depressed, I’m stuck, and I’m losing myself. I started to lose my relationship with God. I continue to call Him, and He keeps on giving me a strength to be strong and to do it.
I still can’t.
Until I met a guy, who gave me hope.
A person who committed his life to God. He was about at the peak of his success, but he forgot everything to serve God. He has flaws, but he can manage. He is fragile, but he is faithful in God. He once tells us how he values God.
His life inspires me. No matter how hard, how complicated, you need to trust God and have faith in Him. Sometimes, if you don’t know what exactly you need to do, God will make a way to help you. He uses other people to lift your spirit.
It took me one year of praying and crying until I officially did a break-up.
It sounds too much, but I did. Finally!
I was smiling at first, but heartbreak is heartbreak. It will hurt you, and hunt you. It is because of its reasons why it doesn’t work.
We are years in a relationship once believing in a happily ever after of fairy tale. But our reality does not work like that. I fought, I hold on, I believed, I prayed, but he doesn’t. I gave up.
