One of the most breaking feeling
Holding nothing to cause the falling
Crying over a relationship never existed
Wishing an end, though never started
From the top I jumped not mindful of the bottom
Waiting your eyes to catch the fall, I succumb
Goping with idiocy in emptiness and darkness
Walking on it I continued guessing
That one day I might forget
I caused myself the pain I felt
Standing by on a road of uncertainty
Looking forward you’ll pass, just pass
Stop over is never a reality but a dream
I’m here, my half is at stake
Will God whisper to you to tell me the answer?
Afore long journey will make
Will He tell you to tell me to quit or to wait?
The longest road I’ve been
Thinking the farther I walk
The further I could lose heart
Not bringing back the feeling
Not remembering how it feels to be hanged
I lack the courage to stab my own heart with a dagger
To stop my heart from beating
Beating with fear, cluelessness and with wishing
Now I know how to endure it
Until God’s time come to cure it
I wish you know
I wish you know that I love looking at you
Your voice is one of my favorite sound on earth
Your smile is one of the loveliest picture I have in mind
Your spirit is one of the lightest aura I felt
Your anger is one of the sincerest affirmation I saw
I’m falling on your cliff
Yes! I chose to fall on your cliff
I wallowed the pain of hitting the hardest ground of yours
Maybe “almost” is not a success
But the bitterest failure
Maybe being just your churchmate is not an ample mistake
Yet it is the mistaken assumption of this bizarre feeling
Cause I’m standing on a friend’s zone
This situation is insurmountable
Loving you is not a failure
Actually it is the cruelest pleasure
It is the tantamount of immedicable wound
Take my other half
I’m leaving to you my other half
One day I might come back whole
And never invoke the brokenness to stop the tears to drop again
This love taught me how to make a rhapsody
Envisaging the phantasm of all the fantasies
I love you with all my best
Will you give me a rest?
Help me! I’m falling on your cliff
Yes! I chose to fall on your cliff
