Yes, i do love you. I love your smile.
I love the sound of your laugh.
I love the way you try to make a cute face.
But dear, you don’t even have to try because you’re beautiful inside and out.
Despite all the feelings that are building up inside of me. I know myself too well, i know deep inside me that I can’t pursue. I can’t pursue you yet.
You don’t know anything about it, but dear, you are my shelter amidst my storm. You’re the silence I’ve been hoping for amidst the war inside my head.
I love you but my anxiety & insecurities will just burden you, it will just burden us in the future. I need to fix myself before i offer my everything to you. I don’t want you to hurt yourself by picking up my broken pieces. So for now, I’ll just watch you to be happy on your own. I’ll constantly pray that you remain to be the beautiful person I know. I will not ask you to wait for me. I don’t want you to wait for something that’s uncertain. Loving someone like you is one of the best things I’ve ever done in my entire life but unfortunately I can’t pursue you.
